Surgery--Again

Back from Bellevue. A long miserable day. Had my throat checked. The irregularity is more irregular. I have a biopsy schedule for Oct. 4.

Came home and found an unpleasant notice re the IRS.

Am I having a great day or what?

On hold with the IRS as I type.

ah, ****...


(((( Boida )))))

Bugger.

Sigh. Just got off the phone with the IRS. I thought I could handle things on my own. They're worse than I expected. I contacted my lawyer. He doesn't do tax stuff but I'm hoping he can recommend someone.

I'm on the verge of tears.

I've had it.

Poo to all of this mishugana.

You will prevail.


(hug)

Just ordered some food. I figure I should get it while I can pay for it and while I'm able to swallow.

Gonna go do some work.

Ugh.

Sorry you have to deal with this Roberta, and that it's so Sisyphean. This (each of the many elements of "this") would be hard no matter what but the endlessness of it all is so challenging. Oof.

Hope a lawyer can deal with it for you.

This is getting grand guignol.

Enough already!

I just wanna crawl in a hole and hide. No holes around other than a sewer. Feh.

I'm getting weirder by the second. I was sitting here trying to concentrate on something other than my problems. Couldn't manage it. I got up to get something. As I walked across the room, I put my hand up to my head. This reminded me that I washed my hair this morning. I said to myself, "Well, at least my hair is clean." I stopped to think about what I said to myself. Started to laugh.

Like I said, weirder by the minute.

I had to check in with two of the surgery people today. Two of them remembered me! Is this a good thing? On the one hand, it's nice to be remembered. On the other hand, they remember me because I've had so many surgeries.

I'm rambling. Waiting for me to do or say the next weird thing.

Hang in there, Roberta.
This is an incredible amount of hideous crap to have to deal with at once, I fully agree.
But I also know that you are an incredibly strong & determined person & if anyone can get through it, you can.
Though I fully appreciate how tough getting through it is likely to be.

On the credit side, in the middle of all this, you managed a laugh.
You are truly amazing.

olga querida, I don't feel strong.

But you are strong, you got this far, you're just exhausted from the continued struggle. Lean on the folks you know, they can give you some energy as you find yourself needing it.

(hugs))

Thanks, Sturgis and bunny. I'm not in a good frame of mind right now. Sigh. But I keep plugging along.

Can't think of another thing to say. That doesn't happen often. Well, come to think of it, never. I guess there's a first time for everything.

Listen to Sturgis. The man gives good advice.

Wish I had more than something to lean on to offer.

Spent the evening with Brenda Lee and another friend at a free outdoor concert. Brenda Lee and I talked a bit about having met Roberta. You've got some fans up here north of the 49th. ((( dear snarling one )))

And can understand why, Roberta.
To be facing so many really serious & demanding hurdles & setbacks at one time, then to overcome those hurdles through strength and sheer determination, then to have only a relatively short reprieve before the next lot of hurdles present themselves ..... would have to be extremely draining & dispiriting.
You don't want your life to be like this.
Of course you don't.
I can fully understand why your reserves of strength are so low right now.
And why you feel at a such a low point. Especially with the new concerns about your throat.
It is not much help or comfort to you, I know, but I'm so sorry, distressed & disappointed that that you are going through so many challenges again.
But, you being you, I also know that you will somehow find the necessary strength to do what needs to be done. I just wish you didn't have to.
You are a survivor, Roberta.
It is just so bloody hard on you, that's all.
Sending you my love & comforting thoughts, Roberta.
And wishing I could do so much more than that.

(((B)))

bethie, Lean on-able is nothing to sneeze at. Please send my best to Brenda Lee.

deb, A poysin can always use a bunny hug. Thanks.

Love and comforting thoughts are plenty, olga. Thanks.

Hey you!

Did ya think you could slip this by us in another thread and not say anything about it here?



Okay, give. What's going on kid?

I'm going to dust off my good vibes machine, no not the vibrator, and get it all warmed up just in case they're needed.

Will Sheila be able to keep us updated while you're indisposed?