Oh, I'm so
sorry to hear that you're having to think about losing your Pacco, Osso. I know he means so much to you. You know what an animal lover I am, so I really, really feel for you. I have a rabbit who has been with me for about nine years now, and I watch him obsessively, just dreading
the first sign that things are going wrong
Having pets age is.....oh, no words for it.
Is he ill with something, or is it just aging in general?
On crying, I was a crier my whole life, then went through a stage in my late teens where I was just terribly, terribly hardened to it and absolutely did not let anyone see me cry... My parents were breaking up, and my mom took a lot of her anger out on me, and if I cried, it just...well, I felt that I couldn't afford to give anyone any leverage on me, I suppose. But I was horribly pent up during those years...it was a relief when I started to get back to my old self and be able to cry at the drop of a hat again
(still REALLY don't like to in front of my mom, though.)