CodeBorg wrote:Do things tend to promote ... more of themselves?
A sort of "survival of the most aggressive" ideology?
Welcome to A2K, vnvmod ! :-)
Some do speak of Christ Consciousness, a kind of universal enlightenment or higher self. Have you pursued something like that with a clear practice? I'm always curious to know how people try to grow.
Referring you to a topic ... What are your interests specifically? Any type of spirituality, or specific things?
yes and no. i have and i haven't.
as a child i was open - far more than i grew to be. but i've no bright memories from those times. at a young age i was forced to begin going through the different institutions of my country. i totally lost myself in the process and learned to know anger and hate - and the very essence of that energy: fear. i had lost hope, i wished for death. not only to myself but many others as well.
but slowly the pages turned and life became easier. yet much of that dark energy still resides within me rearing its ugly head at moments of weakness and bewilderment.
yet my current process appears to be a direct path to the...source. i don't know what it's about but it feels better than anything within the reality i've been taught to believe in. in fact it's simply beyond any measures that i've -on this side- familiarized myself with.
yesterday evening was the last time i briefly entered some ante-chamber of that...state. and, attempting to figure it out by the means of my poor limited mind, it seems
i am not me. i feel that that which in those moments emerges indeed is me but immensely wider than i ever imagined myself to be. and that it's a separate state of being, separate from my ordinary mind - which i actually must completely silence before that state can set in. it's blissful and anything i could ever wish for.
there's no mantra, no awkward positions i'd have to take -
ease is the key. and to actually be prepared to leave everything behind - leave the mind, leave the world. no expectations, just pure awareness.
that's how i "do" it. plus that something's changed in me, in my head. i can keep it "open" in a way i did not know i could. that's how it got started i suppose.
my interests specifically are none else than what's related to this process. i know there are people/souls that i recognize, that are special, and i believe they recognize myself also. i believe there's communication taking place that our ordinary minds not necessarily are even aware of.
agrote wrote:vnvmod wrote:perhaps someone could refer me to a truly serious and spiritual topic here...
There's no such thing.
this answer, again, kind of disappoints me but comes as no surprise. although i have one question regarding that: why?
