echi wrote:Don't forget about me, Rex!!
echi wrote:What about the first time you saw it? How did you know it was from God if you had never seen it before?
I was not much of a Bible reader as a youngster. But I had a healthy respect/love for Jesus. I had been raised in the Luthern church but the dated terminology and stoic liturgy was not something that could penetrate my understanding Sunday after Sunday.
I had some troubling traumatic deaths in my family at about age 13. From that point on I slowly developed an unconscious hatred for God.
This hatred nearly led to my own demise.
But some very loving Christians came to me at about age 18 and did not take no for an answer and they befriended me and cleared away the misconceptions that I had, they revealed the TRUTH that death was NOT "God's will"... They loved me even though I felt completely unworthy. For this reason I love you all unconditionally.
Suddenly a veil was lifted from my life and I began the journey back to the true God. It was not reasonings and theology that saved my life. It was the literal written word that I read and it contradicted the errant ideas that I had formulated about God.
In leaving my own theology and adopting the truth of the Bible I nearly immediately saw years of pain and alienation lift and suddenly my life was new again.
This was because of what the word of God said. These teaching from the Bible directly contradicted the deductive reasoning I had derived from the worldy experiences. These words became pure healing to my soul and they have only become more meaningful over the years as I have seen others find the same joy and hope in them that I found many years ago.
In adopting this new way I was literally saved from my own defeat.
I am sure I would not be here typing this to you had God not reached out and through believers pulled me from my own self created dogma.
Before the Bible I was wandering aimlessly. My mind was all over the place. I had left God out of blame, so the sky was the limit. My lack of faith was taking it's toll on me heavily and I did not even know what was wrong with me.
But these loving Christians knew exactly what my life was missing and they unselfishly took the time and sacrifice to teach me from the Bible and eventually my hardened heart began to soften and regain the tenderness that I had long forgotten.
Then God spoke audibly to me...
I did not realize at first that God had spoken to me.
It was like having two people talking to you at once and you have to replay the memory in your head to recall. But I was alone in my room.
The still small voice of God,
I can still remember the tone and timbre of his voice.
"BE A MINISTER..." God said.
I interpret this as administer the same healing to others that was rendered toward me.
Peace with God