Hi cetnats1234,
I've never been married, but I can answer as someone who's both cheated, and been cheated, in a long-term relationship (same relationship - we were together for 6 years. I did wrong first.)
This is my take. No offence, but it sounds like your attitude is, well I said I'm sorry, and now you're waiting for him to do something. To get over it (all by himself, apparently), or ... whatever. You're waiting and seeing what happens.
Thats not how it works.
He must be devastated. And he must sense an utter loss of trust. He cant make himself trust you again on his own - and all the less if you're not even actually around. You have a big part - and a responsibility - to help him to trust you again. To persuade him that he can.
Not saying that it will necessarily work even if you do try. He might be unable to forgive you - or he might be able to forgive you but not to trust you again - or any such variation. And of course, if a year goes by, two years go by, and he's still going, "well I dont know if I can stay with you / ever trust you again", then there is a point where it becomes his responsibility - there is only so much you can do. But have you done much?
Waiting and seeing what he'll do now that he knows the story, is not going to effect much - and its cruel too. It doesnt give him anything to go on. He said he wants to stay with you, so he's willing to
try to trust you again - but you've got to give him reasons to. What's he got to go on now?
This is not his private problem. Whereas that's how you describe it here: my husband has a problem, I just want him to be happy, so I hope he gets over it some way or other. Again, thats not how it works. He cant just start trusting you again purely on mindpower, purely by wanting to. You should be there with him and
work to restore trust.
If you're not up for that or you dont have the motivation for it, or you're just not feeling it, you'd probably better just cut him loose (for now).
There is a point where you can say, "well is he going to make me feel guilty forever, thats not fair" - but thats not anytime in the first year or two. He's got a right to be angry. A one-night slip is one thing - a year-long relationship is quite another.
Re: how one can work to restore trust, btw -- not, or not just, by
telling him that he can trust you. Sure talking is needed - live talking, not on the phone - and, depending on the person, possibly lots of it. (Though please dont answer any detailed questions on how it was with the other guy, what was he like, etc - lot of people will ask that kind of questions when they've been cheated - and knowing the answers in detail will not make 'em feel any better).
But more important is to
be there - to show by doing, not by saying. By showing that you really, honestly want him; that you want
him (not the other, or a possible future alternative that might still come round); and that you're willing to work for it. No, that doesnt mean do all the homework for him, but it does mean being there, as his loving partner, consistently, fully.
Again, if you dont actually
feel that, you stand little chance to make him feel better (people can tell things like that, even if they then make themselves believe again that it aint really so), or to make things better - and it might be better to cut loose until you know you
do really want to work to make things better, and can try again (if he's still interested), but honestly.
cetnats1234 wrote:material girl wrote:Would you prefer it if he split up with you?
in one way, yes, if i can't make him happy any more. and i have mentioned it to him, but he said he wanted to try to love me again. but i am not sure how he feels now. i am not clinging on him to support me or anything, we both have good jobs and outgoing. we were perfect together i guess. And I am the one who did the wrong thing, i don't think I have the right to call the split. So it is really up to him.
Just to show what we're on about, this is one of the posts that made me feel that you dont actually even particularly want to be with him - "we were perfect together i guess", let alone, "i don't think I have the right to call the split", doesnt exactly sound like the kind of true commitment that would be necessary to have even a shot at restoring trust.
cetnats1234 wrote:I supposed to be the one taking the blame and the burden of guilt and I know it.
Do you
feel you are to blame? Or do you merely feel that, well, you know you're
supposed to take the blame?