@McTag,
OKAY THIS IS LONG
it probably wont even be legible im sorry
it s going to sound uh sangry? sad and angry?
or stoic
im tried and tired. code talk i so tired of and i go stream REAL quick
and cant stop
i need definitive answers and cannot stand blaming people i love justice AND mercy
flippin hard
okay? please just guard yerself and be nice tome
i have a slight twinge of asbergers and WHY HE HAVE TO HAVE THAT NAME
but honestly i dont even think i have that i think i am just stoic and OCD
agitation from BEING LIED TO OR I CALLL IT MIRRORING ABSURDITY i was very quiet for many years
i am so bside my self and I AM SPLIT UP AGAIN
i ahev many forms of abuse this is very important to understand.
i am not from COG
oh
weird
you would onderstand
if this makes sense to ANYONE
4 COGS
MY FOUR FOES
i cannot and have not ever understood this one
and uhh it is OPPOSITE THE 4 LIVING BEINGS
yes i am uhh this is real so if you dont like it pay no mind
i write stuff i my head i think i am writing like yu know like stories ?
and i am an artist
i love or loved that and i was musician
i dont even understand this ?
and this all has to do with music i would wrote after i left music after i left music after i left music when i went to space and flew backwards and forwords
thru time
a thing i called ROXY.P
uhhh
hit that quit that YUCK
..
ok so here goes: i already wrote the below:
......
to be called a dang busted critter?
..
i wouldnt dare call any of you this.
lee and i are here in lakewood dallas
left pretty much alone dealing with all kinds of people
wot i call
triage for triage and THEY are doing the same and having to IGNORe US
and trying to speak and use direct words to those WHO CAN
and still i am facing an internet which is INSANITY
i worked on arapnet in 80's
.
i stop.
the anger of man accomplishes nothing
this is left for the Faithful and True Gentle Just God Living
and i know because I DIED 14 TIMES and CAME BACK
imnot going to say more on it it is DIFFICULT
do not press me on it
its impossible to lieandDOI LIE I AM HUMAN
my lies obscure themself
and I HAVE to SAY SOrry FOr thINGS I DONT EVEN DO
this is un believably painful and yet his mercies are new EVERY MORNING
and thats every second
and I STILL or JESUS still HOLDS THIS UP TO HIMSELF LIKe A BROKEN TOY
please refer to me with something more human
unless you are talking of someone else?
and then even that person who is HUMAN
even that person MUSt HAVE been HURT SO BAD
still i would feel so angry for EVERYONE HEre
i am now having ridiculous fights WITH MY OWN HUSBAND WHO HAS HAD A STROKE FOR GODS SAKE
andif you knew this and all that hadgonebefore this
and i knew all your storeies I COULD BECOME THE WORST
tare or ist ever
SO THERE MUST BE A KIND AN LOVING GOD
EVIDenCe
WE ARE
PROOF
a word i HATE AND LOAThE but
all words have become despicable to me because ALL INDUSTRIES HAVE BECOME SO [no words here]
[breathing and i was taught to hold my breath i can swim from alky traz]
i am made in the image of the Living God
my brain has some trouble
and i have mispercIEved a lot but I DO NOT want nor would want to expose
SHINE A FLASH A LIGHt on who i could
they have children and families co lat dams and I COULD
and noones going to care of me? in the future OR MY FOLKS who are so broke hearted and do not want to even give me any advice at this point?
THIS IS HOW CAreFUL THEY ARE
and i was scared they would be destroyed
my younger sister WHO WONT SPEAK TO ME AND I ADORE HER
[somewhere something wonderful and kind is thinking lovely of me all the time]
and i dont think this is the End
i still believe in this Loving and Gentle Kind Jesus which was so warped for me
i am not quite sure how it happened and I HAVE A pretty good memory
if i explained it i would have to write about 10000 dissertations a whole millenny i coud show you to my UNSONGS and yu cna see where i didnt even KNOW about this and was singing of it
after i LEFT WOT I THOT WAS THE [ ] music industry
after i was in the [ ] music industry
while i was inanother form of [DARE I SAY It it is NOt OF ME OR YOU ANY OF YOU]
but i did write of it still trying to just write?
you know wot
WHO IS HERE TO ACCUSe ANY OF US?
whiteness not the color of skin but of THE ONE TRUE LIVING GOD WHO HIDES US IN THE SHELTER OF HIS SHADO WING i will take yu to a song i wrote if i feel you want to hear it but it is not very good i used to be good
i sang unto the place where even He is approached by the fallen 1/3 who try to accuse all mankind NOT just "flirty fishers of men" or the last jons"
or anyone regular joes
or shall the left hand say to the left hand i am worse than you or the same?
or worse?
NO
we are accused all day before Him
and He says
this
just like Jesus sed to that woman
who was caught RED HANDED
a SONG I RAMSIe SHICK wrote CALleD UNASHAMed
and yes I WAS Stoned on ACCIDENT
and prolly had a seizure as well
i dont remember
i will not say more
and I SANG it
whiteness stands FOR ETERNITY
innocence
YOU HAVE NO ACCUSERS NEAR YOU DO YOU?
NO
He drew in the sand and [tHay] had come to ACCUSE HIM
not HER the WIFE OF HIM
which is US
i am now using JESUS TALK
[breathing]
i wrote this in a record i recorded in DEEP ELLUM 1997? after so much? struggle
recorded in WYLIE TX
..
they found me here caught in side the act
judgement is near and their not gunna hold it back..
white
stands for innocence
i wrote a book of so much to avoid creativity after i left music
and I COULD i did
and IT CAME TRUE sort of?
..
who is Miss Lola
someone use a real name at least
or are you calling someone else a dangbusted critter i do get confused and right now i am turning stoic
and mirroring absurdity
as i see most doing
anyway?
why would they not?
..
its as if there are NO ADULTS
.
but i will say i am unfortunately half lucky in that
my own parents did not participate in "wotever this is?"
i was in [it]
[i am just not mentioning names unless i have to]
i have them ive written them and all i can say is
ill use a metafor OH HOW INTERSESTING
"neghborhood is very smalling"
..
and why always the incongruency? like euclids absurdity in Pi
well i stop looking for it and it comes lOKING FOR ME so i say it is NOT OF ME
now and still i am now here
like my own father helped me kick a woman who wrote many bible study books OUT of the lap of THE REAL JESUS of MY HEART
why is SHE on his lap but she is not a bad person she was just trying to do stuff to HELP
and another woman
wrote stuff which helped but later i called it later in another song
THE TWISTER
well THAT TWISTER WAS ME
still i haveto be responsible for myself
BUT THIS DOES NOT MEAN THAT TRADING SEX FOR SALVATION DID NOT HAPPEN LETS CALL IT WOT IT WAS
that is how i explained it when i went to THERAPY
getting hard to write linear here i stream of concious because of
sPEALLING BEA
and becuz in music industry yu cannot plagerize and CAP PUNISHMENT
in CALI
and well if yu read a lot how can one NOT plagerize
and then if one is TOLD TO BE BETTER THAN LEONARD COHEN
no i never met him so dont get all confused here
SERIOUS I DO NOT ACCUSE PEOPLE VEry SerIOUS
remeMber THIS IS MOST SERIOUS
OR THIS IS ON MY WATCH and i have serious perfection problem still
which GOD HIMSELF IS WORKING ON AND ITS DIFF THAN LEGALIST
and then there is also some disabilities which also can be fun
and then there is wot is going on in the world
and then there is
this wot i was starting to call
DO NOT CONFUSE THE 2
RAINBO KID CAREFUL HID
and the RAINBO GATHERING
my father I WILL NAME HIM
HE IS NOT OF ANY OF THIS
HARRY ROBERT SHICK III
BELIEVE ME I WULD KNOW I KNOW SAFe when I SEE IT
not that he is some ez guy he went to nam
and he is a bit f a recluse and he is kind of like an inventor?
and a writer and his dad ENSTRANGED HIM FROM HIS OWN INHERITANCE
who cares
well it does matter when you see the sad on yer dad
YES IT DOES
YES IT DOES IT ACTUALLY HURTS MORE THAN
ALL THE PAIN EVER HAPPeNeD TO ME
AND thEN THEY ARE TELLING YOU THEY WILL desTROY him/
that wuld be abuse II
no yu woudnt know about that
I WOnT TELL YU OF THAT
or even to NOW
so if i am an adult and I KNOW THE TRUTH
and blieve lies and know how to build worlds and languages
STILL
well that would be my doing wouldnt it
maybe not way back when
but by the time i am later which was so long ago i should know? right
and now? that seems like many apocolypses ago
..
i asked jesus?1974
and i thot oh
ill be gettin out of hell NOW
so i was SEVERELY DISAPPOINTED
but then maybe PREPARED FOR WOT WAS TO COME and boy the perceived hell[z] NEVER STOPPED]
but then i got to learn how to be like my dad and mom
this is where i get truly
YeS I SHALL CURSE NOW
FUCKED
EVERY SICK **** GETS JEALOUS OF ME
and they arent fucked like me andthey dont know
MY GIFTS USED AGAINST ME AND ThEY DONTEVEn know I CANT TELLTHEM
and they are more than uh "street performance"
walking streets of san berdoo
some of them are
in another place
like HEALING
and if one gets hurt
they see i can help
oh THEY HURT THEM AGAIN
this is called shock the monkey
so then i learn to do this now
in this age
..
i stop
i was above trying to remeber MY OWN DANG LYRICS WHICH FELL OUt OF MY HEAD ALONG TIME AGO
UNASHAMED
YOU HAVE NO ACCUSERS
NEAR YOU
its a mission
my dark mission
bring the keys to the kaged ones
screw it too much in the background you all talk to miuch code and im now trying to jst sing songs i wrote im trying to remeber i write like so many since 2004 and i cant remember which one is for here
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and i cant name names
..
NOT ALLOWED
.
ive been abused in like uh at least 3-5 different arenas and its taken me like 35 years to separate this from that and i was never going to blame anyone
and there were many threats made to my family
and so much regrets
i just dont think this place can help me as usual
i just dont understand these words:
"I done checked it, Miss Lola. Mighty fine.
Sure am delighted that y'all's fixin' to make a honest man o' that dangbusted critter."
...
my name is ramsie marie shick
i was born in 1971 cherry point /havelock NC USA
father HARRY ROBErT SHICK III
mother SUZANNE WASHBURN SHICK
husband LEE JOHN MILTON
they are SAFE PEOPLE i have a sister
i love her
she wont talk to me i am pretty positive NOTHING EVERHAPPENED TO HER i could be wrong she is 8 years younger? sometimes 7
i care ABOUT A LOT OF PEOPLE
AND ALL OF YOU
basically the WHOLE HUMAN RACE i think that is pretty unhealthy
uh that is God;s job
but i need some direct SPEECH or i am just going to like be mannheim steam roller we keep HELPING people and GET NO HELP
and i am only going to be 40
and this AINT THE END?
and we are supposed to be living an abundant life?
im not into prosperity blegh **** but
i do
oh
heres a song i wrote its simple a little chorus it worked out
CAREFUL IT MAY TRIGGER
it does mention a name
so i will say it this way had named it [ ]'s song
becasue it was when i did xtian music
but ill say it this way
DA WEEDS SONG and if you saw how i draw him you would like it it dont look like uh HA HA
i am very or i dont know
uh yu can see some of my art at
thredd.deviantart.com/
IF its still there?
but i took spacepage down i was getting severe pissed at some things and felt oncoming anger at uh dominos i did not know?
i am uh serendipitously always IN THE WRONG PLACE AT WRONG TIME
JUST LIKE MINE OWN PRIVATE BAKED POTATOE
oh them movies always makin $$$ offa my madness thank GOd they are about to make very good movies
so here is a chorus from the song i was just about to sing
from the second ? one
DA VEED
or DAL VED
or DLVD's song
[i had often had to smuggle the bible to my own self?]
yah thats called the holy spirit folks
i was way screwed b4 fly fisher
nd that happened i think on both coasts IN AMERICA but i cant be sure SO DO NOT GO GOSSIPPING IF I AM NOT SURE IF COLLAT DAM AGE ON MY WATCH I WILL FEEL SUCH GUILT?
i will not be able to CARE FOR MY HUSBAND
IS THIS WELL UNDERSTAND
and out of stress on him
from his abuse?
which thats WHOE OTHER STORY oh my god
he lost his teeth ALL OF THEM like years before his stroke?
while wed be like HELPING OTHER PEWOPLE
so
realy
someone tell me WTW IS GOING ON I NEED SOMETHING?
here is chorus i sang so much in so little time i had some Grace
even under like a sort of bi-polar manager BUT MAN IF HE HAD KNOWN WOT HAD HAPPENED TO ME I AM AFRAID HE WOULD HAVE
uhhh gone HUNTING
and i would not do that to him and thne THAT CAUSED LIKE AN INVISIBLE WAR
omg i am so crying this is so effing quadruple double bind cosmic murfys law i dont even WOT STILL GOD IS GOOD YES THIS TABLE IS MADE OF YeS
breathe
so here is chorus
"like a sling shot over the moon its a chance a king would take
and lately these little od stones have been big enuff to take down the giant in the la ha ha ha hand oh oh oh oh oh ho ho"
then me and lee would like whistle?
and i would make myself sound like jimi hedrix but i am like this girl
but i would aslo pretend i was like uhhh Fifel?
like fromthe Rescuers and also uhhh
kermit the frog like
yah but think just like innocent white
like rainbow connection LIKE that banjo part?
cuz i wrote another song called independence day but that is when
i was let out of a mental instituiton
but my parents werent being told the truth about it
and i was given to the wrong doctors?
oh my god we wont get into that one
and i am so donne johhny 114 sonny
with thinking im a liar chair nail shirt on this
i saw uh
in philleh
uh
mothers day but it was NOT on mothers day?
.
thats when i was somewhere i was working or about to work for old rca building NBC? for tom brokaw? PA on ARAP net
uh taking polls
i didnt take polls but i supervised these computers? or peoplle on them and they just take the calls from people canvassing for the data coming in for NBC at the time?
uh think uh geralding ferrarro when she ran for VP uh this is when just think oh i dont know i could think of a movie or just say
where my oh no.
uh he lives IN KENNEBUNK MAINE?
yah he came into THE SEAT after i and a bunch of kids and college kids from rutgers? just
..
THIS IS A BIG TOY JUST FLIPPIN PRAY
THIS IS WOT I AM SAYING
i cam e here for help yer all talkin code I KNOW TOO MUCH
AND WE ON FOOD STAMPS IT AINT RIGHT AND ITS NOONES FAULT
ARE KIND OF UNDERSTANDING THIS?
if anyone shows a measure of FAith TOWARDS GOD
HES GOING TO DEAL WITH EACH APPROPRIATELY
but yah
ypu gotta get mad as ****
im pretty effin pissed but
this code **** is just guna keep me into stream
i cannot be lost in space OR I AM GOING TO BE just going back to thinking i got to save the universe again
becasue you can fly fish with out
gettin sexy
i mean you can do all kinds of things
bend time
its called DOIN **** YU AIUNT SUPPOSED TO DO
exclusivity
inclusive
uhh
and
heres answer to joke
WOTS THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN A DUCK
F and D
uffendee
offence
conflict
well
EVERYBODY HAS CONFLICT
some of us?
have a BUNCH OF IT
we got to deal with it
there s a bunch of KIDDS OUT THERE LOOKING FOR ADULTS WHOS GOING TO HelP theM
my parents
I WANT TO NOT BE ALL EFFED UP
I WANT TO TAKE CARE OF THEM
i got to go to 2 weddings WHICH ARE ABSURD
to me
i dont WANT TO **** THAT SHT UP
I WANT TO DO MUSIC AGAIN
how can i if like suddenly theres like ALL THESE RAMSIES OUT THERE
AND 3 weeks ago NEVER IN MY LIFE was there a RAMSIE SHICK except like ONE in hawaii???
and how is it
nope
no names.
i have ONE pint of incongruency i have found that i could turn this whole thing up
and that
watch this is called FAITH
is the essence of things hoped for the evidence of things unseen
THIS HAS NOTHING TO DO
WITH ANYONE BUT GOD HIMSELF
and a something HE DID WITH HIMSLEF AND US JUST SAYING YES TO
barely out of the corner of our EYE?
i answered YES to a VOICE WITH NO NAME
and THATS THAT MATTRESS MAN
[i got that from a movie! PUNCH DRUNK LOVE I LOVED THAT ONE]
flipping good movie
omgod that took a long time
its so hard to stay o track when you lost in space!
i do better when we out i the street with the people that are like WAY FLIPPED OUT
and mind you
we dont do any vishy swa stuff
YUCK
..
and we do NOT PROS EL TYZe unless they start uhh
yu know
uh in some places whenthey talk slow:fast and INVISIBLE comes and steals words out of yer mouth almost and then sorry
gotta be a jedi
..
this is real
RAMSIE SHICK
DO NOT SPREAD THIS or thats on you i am really trusting here
i GOT GOD I AM OF THE REAL JeSUS and I AM SAYING HES NOT AGAINST YOU hes sure helping everyone I KNOW i just dont know why hes not heloing out my family and a lot of my dearest friends AND WHY WE STILL DONT HAVE ANY? but i can be patient
i took MORDECAI AND I TURNED A FRWON UPSIDEDOWN
i know all about esther
morecai is patient he waits patient by the gate
hes an EXIT and draw the enemy out and then cyrus and then SEE WOT IM SAYIN IF ANYBUDDY STILL STUCK HERE? now some may not be
but uh some may
i know of 3 generations
AND MY DAD WAS A MARINE AND HIS BEST FRIEND STAN WAS MEDIC
and they both did not like the violinz
and in nomanz land:
NO WOMAN NO MAN GETS LEFT BEHIND
and just maybe thats why i got all dangbusted
but no
i aint the wht yu call him critter?
somehow i just got all mixed up with it because somebuddy serruptious i DO NOT KNOW came thru
NOW BE VERY CAREFUL WITH THIS BECASUE I KNew THIS MAN
AND I I CANT SPEAK OF IT
BUT I CAN TELL YU THIS IS WHY I MENTIONED WHITE INNOCENTCe AS IN EtERNAL ANd PURE i do not know which words work here
my dad worked with someone in san bernardino where a lot came thru in early 70's
and that man worked with TONS OF PEOPLE and IT WOULD HAVE BEEN VERY HARD TO BE AWARE OF SERRUPTITIOUS PREYING ON CHILDREN AND even MEN OR WOMEN
and anything can make a mess i 5 minutes
and before theat wewere sent there by another
i wont speak o that
but my dad worked with a very very KIND man
and ive seen here but i felt NOT to look
and that is
see i can talk about my dad ive sed his name
HARRY ROBERT SHICK III
BILL BRIGHT
and someone came thru there while we were there and MADE A MESS
and I MIGHT HAVE ALREADDY BEEN A MESS
?
i just need
closure
i am not going to shine a flashlite on this
BILL BRIGHT PASSED AWAY A LONG TIME AGO
becasue i will tell you
i am a bit MORE angry and THIS MAN WOULD NEVER DO FLY FISHING
or have FLY FISHING HAPPEN HAS FAR AS I KNOW
at TONY CAMPOLLO becasue he speaks DIFFERERNT WHEN DIFFERENT PEOPLE COme INTO THE CALSSROOM IN CHERRY HILL he now i could be remmbering wrong sorry for spelling im tired this is long
and this is when 10th pres is starting to "change"
i started to call that the mother ship frzen chozen as seen in a River RUns Thru it = a MOVIE
notice how the movies show a lot?
see i could use just the movies and music and HAVE YES
see
like stan my dads friend knew the pheonixs
not their real name tho hmmm
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see i am now becomng subversive AND THAT IS WOT I MEAN I NEED NO CODE OR ACCUSING THAT IS WOT WAS DONE THEN
DOID JESUS DO THIS? NO HE DID NOT
you DO NOT KNOW WHO I KNOW I AM NOT BRAGGING I HAVE THE WEIGHT OF THE WORLD STILL UPON MY SHOULDERS AND I NEED HELP INCOMING HELP IM CMING IN SO HEAVY AND I AM GOING TO BE 40 I Feel LIKe AN OLD BABY I WILL BURY MYSELF
no
breathing
so WHO ARE YOU PEOPLE WOT IS GOING ON I JUST ENCOURAGED YOU NO HelP A WOMAN OUT
WHO HAS A BeAITIFUL HUSBAND WE BEENMARRIeD SINCe tHE YEAr i basically predicted the twins would fall
and basically everything I WRITE HAPPENS
and SING
AND THE SEX FOR SALVATION THEY CAN CALL IT WOT THEY WANT I STILL SEE INTO THEY HEDDS AND SEE the ones who are NOT HUMAN
does this take rockit science?
omg
...
who is mc tag
who Miss Lola
lola Salon
all this sounds creepy i am not following into things that sound weerd
NOW answer me IM SO TIRED
RAMSIE SHICK
these problems are getting worse and i pray and everyone getts better NOW I AM EFFING BRAGGING AND AND I wILL FeeL GUILtY
dO YOU UndeRsTAND OR PARRANOID THAT YOU WILL All go talk about this to someone or some "being will" THIS IS WOT HAPPENS
OR WORSE
WORSE
i wont even speak it
co
lat tor al dam age to any one of you
so
I HILD THIS UP LIKE A BROKEN TOY
SO SOMEBUDDY PLEASE PRAY SO THIS STOPS NOW I JUST WANT eVERYONE OKAY PLeaSE i m goimg to the top of this and saying this is a long letter.
sorry t was long and weird.
im so flippin tired it shuldnt BE this way my GOD WHY
*weeping
and that was in 1974 BEFORE uhh ill go to A rIVer ruNS thru It
NOW HERE WE HAVE A ReaLLY STRANGE ACIDENT OF FAMILY
DONT WE
..
yes we do
..
YES WE DO
.
because
this isnt just about uh
mo
which i thought was
"itll be okay"
(actually nowadays part of a larger town)
