Life: Looking Back, Looking Forward

Happy birthday, Lash!

Happy Birthday, Lash!


Any plans to celebrate?

Lash, HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

We should get together; I'm celebrating mine very soon.

Forty-six is all?! You're only five years older than me. We should date. Then again, mentally, I'm about twelve. How about we just cyber-date. Then in a couple months you can virtually dump me on the scrap heap of love with all your other heartbroken exes.

Happy Birthday, kid!

46 is a great year! Wishing you the best, Lash...

and now for one of my favourite lovey songs



Luckenbach Texas

There only two things in life that make it worth livin'
That's guitars that tune good and firm feelin' women
I don't need my name in the marquis lights
I got my song and I got you with me tonight
Maybe it's time we got back to the basics of love

Chorus:
Let's go to Luckenbach Texas with Waylon and Willie and the boys
This successful life we're livin' got us fueding
like the Hatfield and McCoys
Between Hank Williams pain songs, Newberry's train songs
and blue eyes cryin' in the rain out in Luckenbach Texas
ain't nobody feelin' no pain

So baby let's sell your diamond ring
Buy some boots and faded jeans and go away
This coat and tie is choking me
In your high society you cry all day
We've been so busy keepin' up with the Jones
Four car garage and we're still building on
Maybey it's time we got back to the basics of love

Chorus:
Let's go to Luckenbach Texas with Waylon and Willie and the boys
This successful life we're livin' got us fueding
like the Hatfield and McCoys
Between Hank Williams pain songs, Newberry's train songs
and blue eyes cryin' in the rain out in Luckenbach Texas
ain't nobody feelin' no pain

Let's go to Luckenbach Texas with Waylon and Willie and the boys
This successful life we're livin' got us fueding
like the Hatfield and McCoys
Between Hank Williams pain songs, Newberry's train songs
and blue eyes cryin' in the rain out in Luckenbach Texas
ain't nobody feelin' no pain



(Waylon Jennings)

Have a wonderful birthday, Lash!

THIRD!? Wow. So what do you think it is that makes you feel so insecure?

kicky: THIRD!? Wow. So what do you think it is that makes you feel so insecure?


I thought he was talking about you. But then, you're an old pro with dozens of breakups. LOL

Happy birthday, Lash! I new you were still a youngun. Heck, my husband is older than you.

What FreeDuck said. (I should probably make this my sig line.) Happy birthday!

This was lovely to find and so unexpected. Thank you all so much.

Kicky---I don't know. I wish I could figure it out. When I feel the relatinship getting creaky, I break up. Can't stand the thought of him doing it... If anybody else has experienced this weirdness, i'd love an opinion...

Thanks again, sweet people....

Hanging in...feeling a bit closer....resolving not to break up again for at least two weeks.

<resolved>

He's so sweet!!!

<I really like him>

<giggles>

Still not digging this. I keep re-reading it. It makes me anxious.

Yeah, me too... thus my "stop it already". The behavior on your part, that is.

Yeah. Been mulling it. So, I told him we weren't compatible because I've sorta disappeared in the relationship.

He was really nice, and we're over for now.

He says he wants us to see each other still, like we were planning to do at the end of the year--and see how we are. I guess we're both feeling a little incompatible, but neither of us wants to let go because we liked each other so much...

So, sad. But, ok.

Yeah, disappearing ain't good.

Sounds like this was a useful journey for you though. I remain impressed that you're able to approach these things in a pretty clear-eyed way.

I don't think breaking up is necessarily a sign of insecurity -- can often be just the opposite. You seem to be giving things an honest chance and then, once you have enough info, deciding whether it's a relationship you want to continue. That's healthy.

In the process, you'll probably figure out more and more shorthand, get a better feel for prospects earlier on, but I think it's a good process for you to go through at this point in your life (IMO).

Thanks soz. I always appreciate hearing what you think, since thinking isn't my best thing recently... I know you're right. My "follow your heart" MO is stupid, but I find it so difficult not to.

Crazy stuff happening.

I met a really nice guy (I know...what does that even mean...) who is as nuts for me as I was about Nevada guy. He'd approached me at the beginning of the relationship..and very sweetly backed off when I told him I was developing a relationship with NV guy. He would ask me every few weeks how it was going, and the last time I told him NV and I were over.

He's talked to me 4 to 5 hours every day since then....

He's all deeply emotionally invested and looking into tickets to come here--and Nevada guy is suddenly back saying "Hey, I thought it was a temporary breather...."

I have NEVER received this much attention and it's frying my brain. NV guy doesn't yet know about NY guy...so it's not a jealousy thing...

NY guy and I talked 5 hours on the phone one night and still had so much to say---so much in common --it's almost not to be believed. He's raised his children---teenagers--a really committed, connected father-- devoted son--- absolutely over the moon about me (his fatal flaw). LOL

It's hard to move on though. My heart and head aren't on speaking terms.... One in NV(heart)....one in NY(head)....meanwhile...ass still in GA....LOL

Planning a tentative trip to Helen, GA in Oct with NY.....will lose NV for sure....and I know I should....but my heart is all strung out across the country...

This is crazy.

Film at 11.

Ya'll. I'm in a 13 and bound and determined to get my ass in an 11. I never I'd ever experience any of this. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Appreciate osso and ehBeth. It's hard to look at this objectively, and feedback is so valuable. Thanks so much! Love yas.

If you disappear yourself, you'll rebound inconveniently later, thas' all.

So NY guy - would he be ok with errr sex and casual long-distance friendship?

Any luck with meeting interesting local people to 'hang' with?