When she stops moving?
Sorry, you set yourself up for that one.
I think you mean the "partnership" in your marriage. It sounds like she keeps loving you but you keep changing your mind. I had a girl in my life (not even a gf just semi-romantic friendship what would probably be called mild relationship tension or something). but I didn't know who I was or what I wanted from her. We ended up apart, because honestly I'm too self-centered to be in a real romance. Later, we're friends again but I'd not gonna try to resume things. Do whatever you need to not to hurt her. Stay together, break it off, avoid the one that seems like it would hurt her more. If you care about her, care about that.