Maybe I just wasn't ready to be a grandma!

My husband and I are in our early 50s. He's 52 and I'm 50. Between us we have 6 grandkids. His adopted daughter has 3. My oldest son has 2 and recently my husband's biological daughter had his first official blood grandchild. I will say this. My husband loves all those kids the same. He shows no favoritism towards any of them. Especially my son's oldest. She's 5 and she thinks my husband hung the moon. He buys her just about anything she wants. Well, now that his daughter has a 4 month old he wants to see that baby as much as he possibly can. If a day or two goes by and he hasn't seen his new granddaughter he'll either go see her or he'll tell his daughter to swing by with the baby. We help out with keeping the baby during the week a few days so he sees her on the regular. And she works at a car dealership so she doesn't really have a set schedule and works most weekends so my husband always volunteers to watch the baby and he loves to take her to church with us on Sunday. I don't have a problem with that sometimes but it seems like every Sunday she's with us. And we also get my son's oldest daughter every other weekend and That's a lot to deal with a new born and a 5 year old. Yes, my husband helps out. So please do not think he's just dropping the kids off on me. I just didn't think that at 50 years old I'd be tied down with grandkids. I don't want kids in my house all the time. My husband says that I'm making more out of this than I need to be and that they are not here all the time. He says that I'm just trying to stay young and not accept the fact that I'm a grandma now. No, I'm not walking around wearing an apron or making chocolate chip cookies for them but I just feel like these are some of the best years of my life and I don't want to be saddled down with grandkids all the time. My husband feels that when you have kids and as they get older then the next logical step is that they will start having kids of their own so I need to get use to the idea of having grandkids and having them around. My husband comes from a big family and every Sunday all the kids and most of the grandkids always meet up at their parent's house for Sunday dinner. His mom has a wall full of grandkids photos when they were babies, throughout school, high school and college graduations. This is his parent's first great-grandchild so you know how everyone feels about her. Is this baby here too much or was I just not ready to step into the role of grandparent at my age? My husband says that with my son's oldest daughter being 5 years old now I should have embraced that roll by now. Not saying that I have to be knitting in a rocking chair but I should be happy to have grandkids. He and his daughter are very close and he was in the operating room when she had an emergency c-section. He even stayed with her at the hospital for a few days till she was able to come home. Am I wrong here? He feels that I'm trying to limit his contact with his granddaughter. I'm not, I just don't want grandkids at my house all the time.