Actually, I just used that name here for this topic. I had, long ago, lost part of who I am, but the great thing about getting older is that you come to know yourself more than ever before and I am now very secure in who I am.
It has been very emotional, still is, its a mind set that has to have an emotional place for everything and it all must be kept there all the time or I really would be a basket case.
Seems like a strange situation, but whatever makes you happy.
Did you sell the story to the Soap Channels? You should.
But seriously... playing with fire and seeking self gratification/justification for something you KNOW is wrong - not cool