@CoastalRat,
Sorry if it wasn't clear,
We were together in a long distance relationship, talking every day and video-chatting a minimum of three to four times a week; always until the day we broke up with her telling me she loved me and missed me and couldn't wait until we were back together. A little after one month after she moved for school, I saw evidence of romantic dinners that I took as a new boyfriend on her facebook. I asked her about it and she denied it. On her first break from school, I offered to buy her a ticket to come see me, but she said that had a trip planned with friends. Then the facebook trip post was pictures of ONLY her having what I would call romantic dinners and activities that looked like couple trip not friends trip. I asked if she traveled with a man, and she insisted that she went with her friends and would upload pictures later. Finally a month after the trip I knew and confronted her as if I absolutely new and only then did she admit, but still told me that the trip wasn't with him, that she had just met someone and not imitate at all.
Yes, I know I was stupid to believe that. After hearing this, I gave the option for both of us to see other people or break up. She chose break up. Then a week later contacted me, while hanging out with him. I know this because she told me he was angry that she was texting someone else. Then two weeks after we broke up, she said it was a mistake, she was never intimate with the guy and only used him because she didn't know anyone and...blah blah blah.
Asked me to come back, and I did. I flew to meet her and just wanted honesty. I wanted her to tell what had obviously happened, not the grisly sex details, so that I could know that even though she had cheated and lied to me, could tell me the truth and understood what she did. I already thought she had sex with him, I already thought the worst and I was ready to forgive her.
For me, the cheating sucks. There's no way around that, but I can let it go. It's the continued lying. When I asked her about it, she lied, and then built lies on top of those lies to make it seem as innocent as possible.
Now that I know the whole story, she didn't feel she made a mistake and wanted me back. The guy she met was really controlling and mentally abusive. She had a heated incident with him that involved her uncle when the guy went to her home in a rage. The uncle pretty much told her the guy was crazy and she couldn't see him anymore........then she decided she wanted me back in her life.
I had caught her pretty much red handed, what were the chances of that ever happening again? Well then I randomly look at an old post almost 6 months after I came down to see her, after we got back together, I found a comment by the guy. Click on HIS facebook page and see a picture of them together and the comment "with my love".
Again, she told me it was a random mutual friends birthday and she didn't know he was going to be their, and she had no problem sitting next him for the group photo, but didn't talk to him. BUT.....Then he followed her to a mall where they went shopping, but somehow not together, and somehow he put a shirt in her bag that she would have to return, and meet him again later.
She told me he was crazy obsessed about her and thats the reason for his facebook post, but all I know is she still saw him at least three times after we got back together, never told him about me, and that according to her it was all very innocent.
Sorry, I've wrote too much. Slow day at work. ^^
I just feel if she had been able to be honest with me in the first, we could put this behind us forever 2.5 years ago. We could have had an honest conversation about the guy that she cheated with and whether or not it was acceptable for her to see him again. I feel we can do that now, but I also just feel, that she is ok lying to me. If she does something bad, as long as I never find out....it's ok