mental health

Lots of us have thoughts that we never act on - even dark ones. That's okay; it's just your imagination. One way you can channel that is by writing. Even if you don't think you're that good, writing can be a good way to get that stuff out. If you don't want it to be found, you can always erase any electronic documents or discard, shred, or burn any paper ones.

If it is really bothering you, you can talk to your mother again, but this time in the context of asking to see your doctor and maybe getting a referral to a therapist. It doesn't mean you're violent, crazy, stupid, autistic, or anything else! It just means you would like to talk to someone about it, someone who's a professional. That's all.

It's gonna be okay.

Are you hanging around people like this, watching porn or lots of TV or reading material that kicks off these thoughts? They just can't pop up without a trigger.

Are you a mental health expert Punkey? Obviously not, because, if you were,then you'd know the various things go on in the brain which have no actual trigger. So, yes, they can indeed and do, 'pop up'.

To the OP, heed the sound words of jespah, she is on target.

but im scraed im i going to turn into these things and there is triggers like reading news stories or if someting happnes in the world its mostly fear based im scraed of these things and i might be come these

I'm an author. You should see my search history, and all the stuff I've watched.

These are just thoughts.

So like I said, maybe it's time you talked to your mother again. We should have control over what our thoughts do to us, and understand when not to follow through. If you are having trouble with that (and it's okay if you are), then talking to a therapist is a really good idea.

You should see my search history, and all the stuff I've watched is any of it bad?

And how do you know sorry to be rude but how do you know whats real and what are thoughts

Of course some of it's bad. Given that I've written about what happens when people are thrown out of an airlock in deep space without a pressure suit, yeah, I've read some bad stuff.

And of course it's thoughts. None of that is real.

If you are unsure of the difference between perception and reality, then you really do need to talk to a professional.

could you please elabirate more i mean have you also had thoughts like mine and is it safe to just let these thoughts run in my head and do nothing i mean i wont change will i

You'll be fine - but I am serious - don't blow this part off, please -- if it is bothering you this much, then talk to a professional. In person.

I am neither a professional therapist nor am I in person with you.

what do you mean by don't blow this part off, please

Everybody has intrusive thoughts, and sometimes they can be quite upsetting, but most of us don't act on them and get on with our lives.

Now I don't want to be accused of putting words in Jespah's mouth, but I think she's saying that if you can't just compartmentalise those thoughts and fear you may act on them or that you have trouble distinguishing thoughts from actions then you really need to talk to a mental health professional.

Talking to a professional face to face is the part you don't want to blow off.

Btw, I feel a bit awkward with this terminology, where I come from blowing off is a colloquial term for farting.

okay but these thoughts they wont change me will they i mean is it safe to just go on with my life and what i do even with the thoughts in my head because i feel like if i just let these thoughts happen im a bad person

Thank you - that's 100% it and I had no idea that expression had such a different meaning.

And once again to the OP as I can tell you really don't want to hear this - if you cannot keep your thoughts from becoming actions, then see a mental health professional. The world will not end and your life will improve as you'll have a lot less of this anxiety.

If you think thought will turn into action, then get some help. Full stop.

How would I know? I don't know you. I don't know how much of an effect they're having on you, but it seems like they're distressing you more than most people. Also you seem to have problems distinguishing between thoughts and reality. If that's true you should seek professional help. Consider how much more distressed you'd be if you did act on these impulses.

As in the Pete and Dud sketch about a sign missing some letters.
" His Rs tends to blow off during the winter months."

yeah but im worried that these thoughts will become reality and i dont have impulses i dont think

If you're worried seek professional counselling.

i mean the one thats bugging me the most is pedophilia i mean im 17 and gay i have never once found children attractive but im scared what if i start to all of a sudden or what if it develops then i feel a little panic inside

Talk to a professional, don't be worried about it, you've not done anything wrong. I'm just some bloke on the internet, I'm not medically qualified. There are websites on dealing with intrusive thoughts, but you need to ask your doctor for a referral.

Google "dealing with intrusive thoughts" but make an appointment.