Neverending Rap Battle

MY OWN WORST ENEMY

[Intro]
A lot of people ask me
Why I always get confused
Every time I try and understand some **** that's being said to me
****, I don't know
Maybe it's pressure, maybe it's this autism
Or maybe it's just me taking things the wrong motherfucking way
I guess when it all comes down to it
I'm my own worst enemy

[Verse 1]
Why I was born with this hasn't always been understood
I've never considered autism something good
I always thought of it as an obstacle that should
just be abolished for all the stuff that it's worth in this world
but it's impossible to remove
My personality is so much harder to construe
and is difficult to believe like a report told on the news
about a terrorist who walked into the airport with his shoes
with a bomb installed across it due to go off on us soon
I was only respected once in a blue moon
when I was still making a pact with my chums in the youth school
They took my brain for granted, I was thought of as bully food
That's when I realised that life in that place was just too screwed
I found it hard to figure out why I couldn't defend my ground
against a bunch of malevolent clowns
who were trying to set their own standards in order to win the town
I guess gullibility got the best of me
and turned me into my own worst enemy

[Hook]
Whoever the **** thought this could be
that I'd become my own enemy?
Perhaps it's this thing put into me, into me
That's turned me into my worst enemy
And there doesn't seem to be a remedy
That will dissolve this worst enemy
It's taken over my memory, memory
I have become my own worst enemy

[Verse 2]
I'm like a mere shadow of my former self
Because my grown ass is always bashed into a corner
And that is awfully hard to tell
I'm being challenged by this monster that is really a counterpart of my autism
All without some form of help
It seems that every action I take comes with a consequence
Whilst everyone else is rewarded, which is what I've been up against
Ever since I started growing up in these project ends
Everybody just wanted to make jokes just at my expense
Sometimes I think about the kind of response that I would get
if I was to stand up in front of motherfuckers and I addressed
everything that I've kept bottled in my heart and soul besides my head
To tell you the truth, I'd be intrigued what message I would send
If only my words created a thunderstorm and silenced them
and showered them with hail just like the biblical plague that God had sent
to terrorize Egypt while He protected the Israelites
when they were locked in their shanties 
How ******* awesome would that be?!

[Hook]

[Verse 3]
Back to what I was saying about fighting with the inner demon
Sometimes I wish I'd take a knife to it and hear it screaming
And listen to his echoes as they spiral down the river Styx
along with the vile spirits that did the evils
I'm not a devil, I just feel like I've been possessed by one
And right now, he's got me at weapon-point, he's checked his gun
and made sure that the ************'s loaded with bullets
If I so much as utter a word, then he'll go on and pull it (*gun cock*)
This has so far turned out to be an arduous battle
I'm competing with myself, I'm locking horns with my shadow
I never thought that my autism would be awkward and shallow
It's like a Genesis control pad that is hard to just handle
Just trying to control this monster is a difficult task
It's tedious finding a balance, I'm against all the odds
My own worst enemy has just been left into charge
And it's up to me to overthrow it, whatever the cost!

[Hook]

Anyone wanna write a chorus to a diss song called "final blow" about a kid who pussied out a battle with me then talked **** about my lyrics said I steal lyrics from YouTube comments lol here's the beat

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SMlVayY4ecU&list=PLD45490E4A6B63E3B&index=3&feature=plpp_video

I may be white but ur blackness makes me laugh
think you great but u follow a shitty path
my raps are reckless
battle me and i'll spit u out and tie your soul to a necklace

you say u playing but i never play
that's why i win the battles and you suck all day
gave my soul to the devil
no soul and even god can't stay on my level

No disrespect but my white ass bout to kill you
i'm all about being true
i only lie under oath
the god and the devil fear me cause i control them both
i am a legacy never heard of for i am too great
live in shadows cause i am full of too much hate

i do cause i'l kill u

You guys say he ain't you
but this ain't Dr. Seus
You just mad cuz you the player and I'm the coach
You can't squash me I'm like a cockroach
You think your raps are tight
but really they're just gonna lose u the fight
I don't know why you r even tryin
Ill hit u so hard people will think ur flyin
I'm not as hard as a rock
but atleast I can talk
I haven't won this heavy weight bout
But I'm almost there so with this I'm out

agin

nice......but i aint tryin to battle no 1

What?

i got ya wondering who is this prick?
is he nice?is he a lil dick
let me tell you my background so you can understand
i was brought up by force,always hit wit da hand
i had dreams of performin live,aint responsible
i cant strive with the average of 55,aint possible
not gonna stoup to ya level cuz i just grew it
you done blew it when i was spittin this fluid
gonna need a hose to wash my ass down
put you in hush mode,...NO sound
too easy,there should be a widget
cuz all i hear is nuttin but a cricket
but like i said i can be aggresive
no hate,but you put me on the offensive

age-in

lol,i suck....

Ohhhh gotcha so what chu been up too? Workin on your lyrics at all? Or are u getting back into it now

workin on it here n there

only write when i get mad

Care to test it out? Friendly battle aha

sure....

when i meet wit a girl i always try to halla
actin like im fresh,poppin my collar

lol