Soooo Second date! And about 10X More amazing than the previous one, and Way more scary too.
First we met up and went bowling.....With her daughter.....And brother, Strangely enough it was pretty good! Then i went to her place, were i nonchalantly met her mother and father......went to the mall with her daughter, walked around shopping and it was somehow amazing and so sweet. Shop keepers kept mistaking us for a family (calling me "dad") and it only freaked me out about 10%.....Thats pretty ******* low!
And then we went back to my place and just talked and cuddled and held each other for HOURS, and feel asleep in each others arms. we both shared so much with each other, and both our feelings are very clear, i told her how ive never felt this way about another woman before.
although, she wants to join the military to provide a better life for her daughter and needs someone to marry. we talked about that alot last night, i told her how i couldnt stand to have her marry anyone else (on paper) while we were together. i even said when it came down to it and if we were still together that id do it,
about how i didnt want her to leave for the military and loose her forever.....and she says to me : Well if you did it, it wouldnt be just on paper, you could come with me wherever i go. and im considering it, and its totally insane. and then this morning she says to me as im dropping her off:
Dont fall in love with me too fast, i like to take things slow.
and last night something was said and she goes "thats the kinda thing that makes a girl fall in love" and i say to her "thats the plan" ......And kissed her on the forehead.
God dammit im so happy around this girl, and so scared im going to get hurt and destroyed if it doesnt work out, id give up everything to move with her and be her husband and live with her and her daughter and us be a family. and her daughter is so Freaking adorable, and she's so great with her.
What the hell is wrong with me?