@pacific,
I feel a lot of sympathy for you Pacific.
I am very sorry that your family hurt you so deeply.
Do you mind if I ask you which country you are from?
I am from the US.
I have noticed that many families who move here have children(kids) who don't feel as much obligation to family.
US culture tends to value
independence more than most Asian cultures do.
I can tell that, being in
harmony with your family is very important to you.
If the cousins who hurt you have grown up in the US, they may simply not understand family the way that you do.
I for instance do not have a close relationship with my cousins.
I feel closer to friends who are not my family.
I am very sorry about what you are going through.