I lost my will to live. Hint: office Christmas party

I only need to know for sure that it was reported to the supervisor. Then I'll accept whatever consequence I have.

Are you avoiding answering this?

He said my supervisor prolly knows that I cut myself, which is why I'm not on the schedule. He is having me find replacement behaviors to cope whenever I don't get what I want, such as missing the party.

Good for you - maybe even going for a walk would help when you feel overwhelmed and out of control.

You really have to STOP giving so much power away to other people. All your problems begin with behaviors from OTHER people. You react to their issues.

No. Other people are not causing her problems.

Her problems stem from her trouble understanding other people, and thus herself, which may be related to a diagnostic set. Other people will always have varied behaviors. Work environments have a subset of behaviors, and angel hasn't a clue, but is trying, mostly very hard, to do well, but sort of like someone without antennae.

She unloads here, but needs to be in touch with her counselers.

well said. the fact that she has maintain this level of ignorance to her current age is proof of problems too profound for us to be of any help. she needs the pro's.

Ever since starting this uh...post, went back to work Sunday Dec 30th. Went really great! And that party was the last thing on my mind bc I've since moved on.

i am sure that avoidance is a very well practiced skill for you, your ignorance could not be maintained without it.

That is quite insulting, hawk. I agree Angel slips around, but mostly from not getting stuff.

You don't seem to get that some people are not very connected with others, by virtue of their brains.

I thought ppl would actually be happy for me...wait, nvm. Most ppl are not really.

Of the few people who care about you I bet most want you to learn. Ignoring problems is not going to get it done.

hawkeye and I agree on something, kazaaa.

But, never mind. What we see is that you, Angel, go through episodes that are sometimes resolved by others (to me, probably protecting you, but that is just a guess.) The episodes are resolved and you are all happy again, having missed a sledge hammer. I agree you do wonder, as episodes go on.

The non awareness is, I think, part of your problems, even though I see you trying. Keep up with your counselors.

And plenty of the rest of us have failure to self reflect a great deal of the time - it is quite human not to at any given time.

I'm rooting for you, Angel.

Truth can be insulting, nevertheless, if these dorks don't grow out of their stupid stage, there is a greater chance that natural selection will eat them up.

will wrk again next week. Been a bitch at home lately about lack of hours and then i got scheduled last night. How do I stop being a bitch when things gets tough? Why am I always bitchy about everything? I have trust issues bc I been lied to too many times before. Thx God that this is the only place I worked where ppl r open and honest. It'll be awhile b4 I get past my trust issues, but hopefully I do...

How are you going to get passed your issues when you show no understanding of what they are? How often do you see this counselor and exactly what are his/her qualifications?

You claim to have trust issues and yet you go around telling people stuff they should never have been trusted to know, which is odd. Normally "trust issues" means one does not trust enough, you clearly trust too much.

I'm always thinking people are having motives that are other than open and honest.

There you go again - focusing on what other people do and think instead of taking care of yourself.

What have you done lately for yourself?

That is a bit much to expect from someone who can't even be bothered to remember her diagnoses....

It could be Angel's evading, and simply doesn't want to reveal her diagnosis. I don't blame her for not wanting to to announce it on the internet.

More likely she refuses to internalize any truth about herself that is not what she wants to hear.... and so her continued shitty life will always be someone elses fault, maybe forever.