@Twilight1,
You do need a self check but with yourself.
You chose 4 years ago to go out with an egotistical, serial cheater who just wanted a handbag and a Mother of his daughter.. You already know why you did it, the package looked good.
Now you realise that you are missing out on what "normal people" have, love, and respect, communication and fun..
Quote:for the kid as he desperately wanted one?
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Quote:the only thing i do for my daughter is dress her up and then i am off with the girls
Leave your daughter with him. You call her "a kid" then state all you do is "dress her up" just like he does you, gives you money to spend, that's all you are is a doll, that is all you see in your daughter as well.
If he desperately wanted a child, leave the child with him, I am sure that he will find another handbag but one that will bond with the daughter and give her a better life.
Hope you find what you are searching for and realise that using someone for self gain usually has consequences, such as un-happiness, your child doesn't deserve to have the same, un-happiness. Hope you realise what a failure of a Mother you have been and if you yourself, weren't loved as a child, that's no excuse to bring a child into this World and treat them like a doll, nothing more....