@msolga,
I think I've only mentioned it once on this site....as in RL, I am very private about my public life......odd, but true....anyway, I"ve been involved with the goings on of my city for about 14 yrs, in April I ended a four term run {8yrs} as a city councilman....mainly to take a break from things....and to give myself some time to see if I really wanted to return as Mayor next April. I told myself that in Sep, when I turned 40, I would make the decision....so I had about 5 months to mull it over.
Late that night....on my bd...as I sat out on the deck, and sipped a glass of 30 yr old single malt, I decided that no matter the downsides...and there are many, in such a small town....that my little town was, next to my family, the most important thing in my life....and pretty much always has been, since I was a small boy....there are iron clad reasons for my feeling that way, but I'll keep this short for now.
In everything that I have achieved, I am not ashamed to say that I am proud of myself....many minor, and a few major projects, that should have been attempted 40 years ago, are now completed, and I helped to see them thru {read that as pushed, pulled and dragged}....but my two best friends...one from basically 0-13 and the other from 14-21, have never had anything positive to say about this part of my life....and honestly what they do say is nothing I really want to repeat.....mainly just a general sense of disbelief that I could ever take part in something of this nature. When I do speak to them, which is very rare....I avoid the topic all together, but it always seems to come up....one anecdote coming up Osso....
My buddy and I both travel a lot with our jobs, so it's not uncommon for us to run into each other 10 times in a given week....which I usually just wave and go about my business....but one of the times I stopped to talk to him, we were in another town, so I figured I was safe from the topic coming up....but during our convo, two guys walked up to me and made a few jokes, mentioned something I had said during a dinner a few nights before and asked if he could quote me in the state house....I said something like sure, just don't forget to mention my name, cause I'll be up there to see them boys in a few years. After they walked away, my friend looking kinda confused asked who they were, and when I told him that the tall guy was our state rep, and the short guy was our county commissioner....by the look on his face I could tell that he was having trouble digesting this, so I asked him if he could actually hear the twilight zone music playing.
I rarely get my feeling hurt....very rarely, but each time I have an encounter that goes something like that, with either of them....it does bother me greatly....neither of them "believe" in me, and since I figure they know me best....the seed of doubt is put in place, and I begin to wonder if I'm just fooling myself....maybe I don't belong in that circle....I'll be the first to admit that I'm not a suit and tie, fancy dinner kinda guy....and I never have to be....but what my friends, and it seems most people don't understand is that those guys are just "dudes" like we were/are....
It's a good thing my ego is big enough to blow all that off in a few days after something like that happens.....well that and of course all the perks that come with being a politician....kickbacks, hookers and booze.