@stevenya,
Look fellow, you have saturated this site with your love-sick angst long enough. Nobody gives a **** about your broken heart, simply because ALL of us have had one. Do yourself and everyone else a big favor. Grow the **** up and act like a man, or seek pyschological counselling.
Your posts are really creepy, and you need a good swift kick in the ass to get you on your way to your future, sans you lost love.