@blueveinedthrobber,
blueveinedthrobber wrote:
I'm a drinker... but I can have a drink, or no drink, or a couple of drinks. Not everyone who drinks is an alcoholic, a drunk. sorry you hada bad experience but no need to take it out on others.
Most of my life I was an asshole, and not entirely by choice as it is for many assholes, but mostly for defense, and I was one guy who should not have had his inhibitions lowered... My natural inclination is toward spontenaity, but I am often imappropriate and offensive; generally over controled, to keep my emotions from getting the better of me, sometime heartlessly cruel and honest... I cannot tell a lie, but I have often told the most cruel of truths to no purpose except injury... So I do not need my inhibitions lowered by wild turkey or what ever is the drink of the day, but I need the walls of inhibition as high as prison walls..........
When I say was, I do mean was an asshole... If I am cruel today, and lash out , not suffering fools in silence it is not because I am blasted... And I have few of the defenses I once lugged around... I have found the points in my life where I really went rotten, and I found my way home, and everyone can... I do not excuse bad behavior with drink... I drink in moderation, and my opinion of humanity has radically changed so that I can relate positively to people, drunk or sober... I just can't handle the hangovers... got to much going