@Tinkerbell1981,
Hi Tinkerbell,
It’s sad to hear the path your husband is taking.
What do you do if he doesn’t care about the consequences? That’s a truly difficult thing. When police deal with imminently suicidal people (say someone about to jump off a building or bridge), they are taught not to talk about ways to help the person...because the problem is all the persons coping mechanisms have already failed " they’ve tried everything they can to cope, and it all failed. What police are taught to talk about, is the consequences of that suicidal person committing suicide...the affects on : family (they may hate their family), their pets, the police in front of them, the people who have to clean his/her body up, their friends etc etc. If they don’t care about those consequences any more....
Even though you believe marriage is more important than anything, tThere are a few things more important I should think :
-Do you want your marriage more than your self-respect?
- what about personal happiness " are you prepared to sacrifice a lifetime of it for a marriage with an abusive husband (and make no mistake, that is exactly what he’s doing to you)? One of the side-effects of living in an abusive relationship, is your loss of self respect (see above), self esteem, and therefore, personal happiness.
-Do you want your children to be exposed to an unloving marriage...growing up believing that your relationship is normal? How they form their relationships, and treat their partners will in large degree be based on their primary relationship model " you and your husbands.
As for obtaining proof so that you could back him into a corner where all he could do was be honest with you. There’s a very intelligent pedophile on this forum, who occasionally posts under the philosophy section, attempting to justify his sexual inclination. Many raise arguments against it, and guess what " he still manages to justify himself in a way that sounds reasonable to him...and is quite articulate to others. I posted a number of times to people writing into his thread ‘it doesn’t matter what you say, he will find a way to justify it to himself’...and it’s true...people manage to justify their behaviour in a way that is perfectly reasonable to them.
And as for wanting him to give up his pride and be honest with you...Telling you the truth has nothing to do with it " he cannot tell himself the truth " see above. This is why I originally said ‘it’s sad that your husband has gone down this path’
The polygraph " that’s understandable thing to ask. Why don’t you offer him a compromise " you take the test with questions I want to ask you, and I take the test with question you want to ask me.
He said that you calling cat and asking her is you manipulating him? This is really troubling, because there is no manipulation present in such a thing. If this is an accurate account of how it’s brought up, that that comment I find disturbing.
You can buy text readers off ebay I've heard. I believe it’s an actual piece of hardware, though I’ve never seen one.
You already know the truth, you just haven’t heard it with your own ears, or seen it with your own eyes.
Regarding his continual statement that your marriage isn’t valid - you must realise how disturbing this is, because where does it place your kids in his heart? What does it mean for them? Does he not want to be their father anymore?
By the way - I find your husbands behaviour rather disturbing overall. It doesn't seem quite sound of mind. It appears wrapped up in warped religious beliefs (which is often a sign of mental illness...mild or otherwise). His logic faculty doesn't seem to be functioning quite properly. His treatment of the marriage, you, and because of his 'arguments' by extension the kids, seems...odd. His insistence of the 'invalid in the eyes of God because you deceived me' argument, despite his years of deception, and ongoing deception, is nonsensical.
As a last note - this is all of course, from what you've posted. Often the 2nd party perspective changes such views, but it is disturbing as presented.