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To Abbie
I know you so much better than you think I do.
I know you won’t even look in here until you’re really sad.
So this is my letter to you.
I wanted to tell you how much I love you. You spent so long with me in hospital that I didn’t feel right when you weren’t with me.
That necklace you gave me when I was 7. I bet you thought I had lost it. I didn’t, it’s in that bed knob that you can un-screw.
Sorry for blaiming that broken plate on you last year, it was me but i think you knew that haha.
I know this is the last thing I’m ever going to be able to say to you, how weird is that?
Now I’m in heaven I know I’m going to be better, if I am in heaven and didn’t end up in some crazy afterlife. I was fed up. Fed up of horrible chemo, it made my throat blister and my mouth burn. I hated having surgeries, when I woke up I always felt so horrid and shaky for days. Radiotherapy made me so tired I couldn’t think.
I wanted to grow up and get married, have children and a job. I wanted to go surfing and bungee jump. I wanted to start high school. I don’t know why I got sick but in a way I’m glad I did. I made me realise what was important in life. It’s not doing what you want to do, it’s helping other people. It’s noticing the little things. It’s making people smile. And it’s just having fun.
Really, I don’t care how bad the surgery made me feel, because you were always there to make me smile. Radiation wasn’t too bad because it meant that we could chat and you’d do puppet shows for me, chemotherapy, well, if it was giving me a chance to live, I’m okay with the side effects.
You best find a way to not feel so sad or i'll start making howling noises at night!
Thank you so much for the love and hugs you all gave me, I have no way of saying how much it meant to me.
Can’t wait to see you again!
Plus now, I can haunt you hahahahahaha.