Hey Abbie - good, you needed sleep hunni.
Just take the day as it comes - maybe try not to hold your feelings back - are you going to write something for Lilia? Perhaps you could put your words into a poem - talk from your heart and ya know, if you wanna laugh still with her, then write that laughter down too - don't worry about what others say or don't say - just you say what you would like to. Those little things you want to remember about her, personal to you, keep them in your mind and "surprise" her in your way. Celebrate her life and her strength.
I can actually picture your smiling as you wrote that she would have jumped on you to wake up.
You don't have to be big and brave and strong Abbie - just be you and do what you need to do for you and Lilia now.
We're thinking about you.