LostGirl - you said "When I'm with him and he strokes me hair and kisses me, the rest of the world melts away."
I think you are depressed and need a complete physical. You sound sleep deprived, too, and emotionally needy and because you are this man's "play thing," and he likes recuing the wounded birds, he is able to sooth your woes away.
Unless you are strong enough to want to make a change AND get strong wnough to make a movement AWAY from the kind of soothing this man provices, then you are stuck, yes, addicted to him.
'round and 'round you go.
