Mind you, in his eyes, we have it good, in our kid's eyes, we have it great! They really DO NOT have a clue that there are issues. I keep our home nice and cook and do all the wifey duties.
Are you serious?
Don't kid yourself. Do your children ever see outward affection between you and your husband? You know the kind I'm talking about. The hugging and kissing and smiling that comes with being in love. And the playing with each other. Keeping things on the light side. I think not, if everything you have said here is true. A clean house does not constitute a happy home. Kids are smarter than that.
And your husband
are you sure he's happy? How happy can he be with this friction between you and him. The same friction that made you say on your other thread that you have been lonely for a very long time. That he puts other things before you. That same friction
..that put you in a cheating mode? He doesn't feel any distance between you and him? Come on
think about that.
I dunno, LoveBD. I guess maybe I'm just looking at what "I" want in a relationship. Obviously you have what you want and are happy with it for the most part. I couldn't live that way though.
I won't judge you for cheating. Nor anyone else for that matter. For sometimes the cover of the book does not reveal what's inside. But, the kind of love that I believe everyone deserves in life, is too bonding to allow being in bed with another person.
So kid yourself, not........somewhere there is a lot of unhappiness inside your home....and I don't think it's just "you".