Surgery--Again

It was not my impression that things are particularly hopeful. Just dealing with what is.

I won't be going for the therapy for a while. The heart test is at the end of this month.

I admit to enjoying having young cutie and handsome doctors. But I think I would feel more comfortable with older and a bit grizzled docs.. I wrote about our family doctor on my Bulding thread. That's who I'm looking for.

I don't proofread on the computer. I proofread on actual paper. Although my vision isn't good, it's better than it is on the computer. And no headaches when I proofread.

Good that you have a date for your surgery. Do you know whether you'll be staying in the hospital overnight?

Glad you're less scared. I'm better as a supportee than a supporter, but I'll do the best I can.

I meant hopeful in that you are finally getting some medical attention for your various problems, and have tests planned. It must be so hard having to cope with work and ill health at the same time. Especially with so many financial worries. How did you manage without the cane the other day? Was it successful?

Waiting for the formal paperwork confirming my op, but hope they won't keep me in. You've already given me support - just by asking! Thank you.

This is good news. Let us know how it goes.

Robbie - I am forgetting about your eye stuff (how could I, dumkopf). Tell me more if you feel like it.

Vonny - ok, I know you have been through stuff before, big stuff.. but not until now with the word cancer attached. ( I think you live a brave and fulsome life) Hang in there.

Thanks Ossobuco and Butrflynet - not brave at all - certainly not compared to so many other A2K members who've been through far more than me. Big coward, if truth be told. But grateful for the good wishes - that really heartens me and makes me feel I'm not facing this alone.

I give everyone full rein to laugh their heads off at me when the procedure is all over and done with, and I've realised what a wimp I've been!

Vonny, please stop comparing yourself to others and then putting yourself down.

Your body is your body and the pains are yours, as are the worries, not ours. They are just as important to you as ours are to us. You have every right and reason to feel what you are feeling regardless of what anyone else has gone through. We tell you what it was like for us and hope that it gives you comfort and some relief from your fears. Please don't use it for comparison and denigration of yourself.

It is what it is and you will move on from here, with lots of support and empathy. If you want to laugh, we'll laugh with you. If you want a hug and shoulder to lean on, we'll have that here for you too.

You are so sweet - thank you! Not really used to sharing - but oh, it does feel good, and what a weight your words have lifted from my shoulders. It's people like you, Ossobuco, Found Soul, and Roberta, who really make A2K so very special.

vonny, Note for the future. Never call me sweet. You didn't. But just in case you're overwhelmed with the desire to call me sweet, DON'T. Of all the things I've been called in my life, that's the one word that sends me right up a wall.

So how you holding up? Did you get the papers confirming the date?


I was supposed to see the psychiatrist tomorrow. Rescheduled. I need extra work time. I have to pull my tax info together. I have an appointment on Friday to get my taxes done. Nothing like waiting till the last minute. I've been waiting for some forms. And waiting.

I tried to get an appointment with endocrinology. I need to be checked. They're not up and running yet. Phooey.

I'm getting my heart checked on Tuesday.

What would happen, if, and this is only a question, I, for instance, WERE to call you sweet?

I'd say you were lacking in insight for thinking I was sweet. And I'd call you a bitch, cuz you know I don't like it and you did it anyway.

Cringing as I write. I ain't sweet. I don't wanna be sweet. I have never been sweet. Anybody who knows me knows I'm not sweet. What's the matter with you? Calling me sweet. When did I ever strike you as sweet? Never! That's when.

Slowly I turn. I love that, butrfly. Love it.

And there's this:

Ay Chihuahua!

Or, better...

German shepherd!!!! Bark bark bark!

I didn't call you sweet! I just wanted to know the consequences for so doing!

But I am curious as to why it has such an effect, apart from the general unsuitability and all.

Excellent question, bunny. I gotta think about it. Why does that word raise my hackles? Get me going?

Pondering. I'll be back.

Waiting with interest.....

oh ****...

I tend to find you kinda sweet, too.

but I'm really jaded...

Oh, thanks for the warning! Is this some sort of NY thing, like not smiling at people you pass on the street?...because where I'm from, "you're so sweet" is a standard compliment. Maybe it's just a Southern thang.

Back from pondering. The thinking was fruitless. I can't come up with an explanation. I did remember that I didn't like it even when I was a little Roberta. I have a feeling that it has something to do with my mother.

Eva, no this is not a New York thing. It's a Roberta thing. There are probably hundreds of thousands of New Yorkers who would love to be called sweet. Maybe even millions. I just don't happen to be one of them.

RH, Bull feathers. I don't care how jaded you are. I ain't sweet, and we both know it.

I see a word, a harmless word. Meant in kindness and not even directed at me, and I go nuts. Maybe I shouldn't have cancelled the psych appointment.

Sorry, gang. I got carred away. Genuine feelings and reaction.

Well, however it came about, it's a strong feeling. Must have started with something pretty important to you at the time.