Surgery--Again

Obviously, someone on high told doctors to follow up. And the docs is doin' it. On the one hand, I'm impressed as hell. Thousands of people daily. On the other hand, hey Bellevue. Leave me the hell alone.

I know that my care and well-being is the top concern. But I don't want this. Big Time.

Aside from the fact that they're gonna shave my head, cut my scalp, drill a hole in my skull, and fiddle around with something on my BRAIN, the possible side effects are hair-raising: permanent double vision and inability to move my eyes to name two.

Thud.

For now, though, don't borrow trouble. It sounds like they're just reviewing your file. They may very well recommend that you do nothing. Go have another helping of dessert and chill out.

Yes, it's my decision.

But aaaaaaargh.

The doctor I saw said that if he was advising his sister, he would tell her to leave things alone--not have the surgery...Yes, the meningioma is there, but it's not considered a brain tumor. These are usually benign tumors near the brain. This one is touching my brain, but is likely not causing any harm. We discussed my "amnesia episode." He's skeptical that the tumor caused that. Wrong symptom for its location. A doctor at the hospital was also skeptical. The fact that I had been on heavy-duty steroids for asthma for over a month are as likely a candidate as the tumor.

For now we will do nothing. I'm not keen on walking around with something in me I know isn't supposed to be there. But for now, I'm going to leave it be. He told me that if I decide to have the surgery, just call.

And should there be another amnesia episode, I should go to the emergency room.

While I was waiting (almost three hours), I noticed that a Bon Pain had opened in the lobby of the hospital. I used to eat at this place many years ago, and I liked it. I asked the doctor if he'd tried it. He said yes, it's good but expensive. I said, "Well that lets me out."

Hold onto yourselves. He arranged for the money I paid for the visit to be refunded to me. In a sense he treated me to lunch. Here comes another thud, but a good one. Thud....