Diary Poems

Naima wrote

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a while ago you were said something about bieng straight, you continuesly sighn off as 'Love, Leena' and now.... C'mon Lee...i really wouldn't think so!!!

Actually, what I had said was that everybody is not straight :wink:

Hey, count me OUT already; are you insane -- ME and you??? Shocked

Take out your tension on someone else and spare me of your scary sexuality Laughing

Cuz I'm straight and am gonna be for like the next zillion years.
How 'bout you? Cool

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LOve

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Okay Lee....

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are you insane -- ME and you???

that's exactly what i meant! are you insane!!!???

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lostnsearching wrote:

No, Not Tonight!

I am sick of this life
Altogether which isn't mine
I'm tired of bieng an object
for you sexuality
I'm tired of fulfilling you desires
of sensuality
All this agonizing harrassment
I just can't take it anymore
All this lustful f*cking
I won't do it nomore

You think i don't have a mind
through which i would know
You think i don't have feelings
or emotions that flow
You think i don't have a heart
or desires i can grow
Well, you are wrong
And this i will show
With the power of my feminity
Which you have marked with disgrace
With the power of those tears
Whose owners you have raped
Oh you don't think so?
What'll you do if i say no?
Yes, that's right baby,i've said no
No,not tonight
I'm never ready for nay emotionless sex
My revolution has begun
And i'm ready to be a martyr
So what is it that you'll do
With all that masculinity
And superiority of physical strength
Do all that you can
F*ck my corpse
but i'm not gonna make you feel happy
No, not tonight
or everafter!

(might sound a bit offensive! )

okay, Journal continued...(in a while :wink: )

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No Faith
After all these years of seperation
I thought we'd finally be together
My pyramids of dreams
all shattered
But now i know better
and all those false hopes
will no longer live
For I have stopped believing in you
Cause every time i do
You come with another twist
to make me relive the angry fist
of those moments I tried to forget

i don't believe in you
nor do i believe in those promises
which you so solemnly swore

I have lifted my faith
from everything

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The deep-black-purple flower

The flower i admired
for the beauty in its colour
deep, black-purple

fell beneath my feet
and crumbled

out of pity, i kept it
Lifeless,
within the pages of my diary

its delicate petals
carried so carefully
its velvety surface
touched so softly

but after a few years
i forgot,
about the flower i once admired
for the beauty in its color
deep-black-purple
(people come and go...)

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UNTITLED

When i heard you'd left
i held my breath
to hear your retrieving footsteps
but they didn't come
after a few centuries
I gave up on all hopes
but still waited for your return
you didn't come
when i was forced to accept someone
in your irreplaceable place
i meditated upon your bieng
but you didn't arrive

so after that Martyrdon
you so magically appeared
......
to charge me guilty
as a criminal of my innocence!

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How Would you feel[/color]

How would you feel
if you saw him everyday
Living his life in calmness
starring at you in the eye
with no dismay
while you are broken
in complete disarray
wounded and lost
in planets afar

How would you feel
if you thought of him everyday
thinking he'd do it to others
what he did you
while you couldn't scream
you are helpless

how would you feel
seeing he's moving on
his life uneffected
while you world has ended

How would you feel
hiding from his gaze
while he still followed you
suppressed you
oppressed you

how would you feel
when he visits you in prison
and you see his dirty face
smirking menacingly
while you've been proven guilty
of his crimes

how would you feel
Knowing you'll never get out
of the mess he's put you in
while he doesn't even care

Tell me,
How would you feel...
................................................
(yes,
you'd feel just like i do
...Every day of my life)

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This one isn't exactly a well written piece but it's very important for all those who can relate themselves to it...and believe me, there are many!!!

p.s Half-inspired by Lee (LEENA) :wink:
Okay stop jumping Lee!

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Naima wrote

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Okay stop jumping Lee!

I wasn't!

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LEENA wrote:

Naima wrote
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Okay stop jumping Lee!

I wasn't!

Don't be shy sweety!

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lostnsearching wrote:

The deep-black-purple flower

The flower i admired
for the beauty in its colour
deep, black-purple

fell beneath my feet
and crumbled

out of pity, i kept it
Lifeless,
within the pages of my diary

its delicate petals
carried so carefully
its velvety surface
touched so softly

but after a few years
i forgot,
about the flower i once admired
for the beauty in its color
deep-black-purple
(people come and go...)

I really like this one, Naima, It's spoken with a gentleness that somehow makes the whole thing very precious. Nostalgic.
Thanks for sharing it

Peace,
Endy

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Hi Endy
Thanks for dropping by
That poem is actually quite literal! I used to see that flower grow in my school grounds but never took it off...i really liked it, and admired it everytime i saw it. one day we had this flower arranging contest sort of thing at school and after it was over i was walking around and found it (like explained by the poem) crumbled beneath my feet. so i kept it...it stayed in my diary for quite a long time and now...i don't know where it is!!!!
it got me thinking about other things, specifically people. For a while you admire something so much, and then you end up not caring!(though i'm still looking for it and i'm very sure i'll find it when i clean my room)
Regards
Naima

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Curiosity provokes me to cherish secrets
secrets that whisper evil to me
And force me into a darkening pit of silence
From where I cannot escape
But I lie there for hours
To let the danger pass
And mourn over the behavior
Caused by my love
for the unknown
Mysteries unveil,
Yet as secrets, which I must keep
When pleasure fails to bribe me
I watch myself
Being tormented to death
For the sake of liberating truth
For the sake of my humanness
And that's how I end
Abruptly
Just like you
Just like all of them
Who are murdered everyday
By their passions
By their purpose

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I sat there like an orphan
Under the starless midnight blue sky
Shedding tears of your love
Tears of your pain
And the agony which they put us through
Coated in sweet layers of hypercritic laughter

While they sleep peacefully
I await your return
In the darkness,
I sit like an orphan
Unprotected, unhugged
Remembering your embrace, purity
And that warmth of richness

I lie there, weak and torn apart
Fearing and unforeseen execution
While they celebrate upon your wrecked state
I hand on to false hopes
And the promises you break everyday

Befriending monstors of the night's stillness
I stare out at space
The moon is clouded
And the sky roars evil
As I lie there
Paralyzed on the freezing floor
Unheard, unknown, unaware

From dusk to dawn
And dawn to dusk
This game that I play
This character I pretend to be
Slowly and silently,
Pulls me down to my grave
As I await your return

Their laughter and their joy
And the mirth you've put them in
While I bear the cutting winds of winter nights
It torments me with envy
Tenderly killing the little love,
And the little faith I ever had

Behind that silence of truth
Commotion of falsehood has trapped me
And the earth sucks me in alive
With the unveiling secrets you've failed to see

You cannot tell lust from love
You cannot see reality in this drama
And you cannot see the obvious
For what it's there for

So, as you continue to act a puppet
Hidden misery and abandoned trials
Kiss me down to a lovely death
With nothing but fruitless patience
.

(but God, where are You???)

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This one really makes me think and go back a million years to what I've been through and that's about the best a good poem can do.
The way it's been written and everything about it -- I wouldn't say great because this word will make it sound like .......well I don't have the word for it (yet) but I told you how it made me feel.......and I haven't felt that in a long time.

This experience was regeneration. Smile

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but God, where are You???)

Who are you inquiring about -- God or the person about whom you talked in this poem?

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Hi Lee
nice to see you've dropped in after quite a time...
and lovely to hear about that regeneration...its what keeps things moving doesn't it? Twisted Evil

LEENA wrote:

This experience was regeneration.
You wrote
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but God, where are You???)

Who are you inquiring about -- God or the person about whom you talked in this poem?

I'm not referring to that person...he's too much of an idiot to answer that...or should i say that i know he-just- isn't- there!!!!(for me atleast!)
I was actually talking about GOD, like THE God...

how's your work going...haven't heard about anything new for a long time...(Exam fever? Laughing

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Why do I trust what's unreal
Why do I love what cannot breathe
Why do I talk to strangers
Why am I called a freak
I'm sick of lying to the world
And I'm sick of this silent retrieve
Why can't someone take away my grief
And return that childhood
I lost ten years ago
Why can't I find humans
In the human race?

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When I face Mankind
Right now,
I'm in no state to face mankind
But when I am
I'll surely ask those humans
What satisfaction do they gain
By taking away an innocent child's soul

Right now,
I'm too scattered and too meek
In no state to face mankind
But when I am
I will surely ask those mortals
What fun is it to blast away
A home that took years to build
And lives that were treasured beyond gold
What curiosity has caused this destruction
What glory do they gain
When the take away an innocent's childhood
What lands do they free
When they invade a blessed territory
What grace do they protect
When they rape purity to its core

Right now,
I'm too inhuman
In no state to face mankind
But when I am
I'll surely ask
Why have they abandoned me
Is it power? Is it greed?
And when I do
I'll be a slave of my dreams
And when I am
I'll implore answers
Which I may not get
And if I don't
I'll torment you
With the very essence that made you human
When I face mankind

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These last few...some might call it crazy questions(which they are) while others consider it hate, the actual stimulus goes backHERE

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D-Don't Don't Leave

"D-Don't Don't leave"
I'm so scared
They're looking for me
But I'm here
Miles away
Hiding under your bed
I've been shaking all night
Shivering In the cold
Ctying tears of black blood
Watching the dusty floor unfold
The night has passed
and you are about to leave
i've been whispering your name
and calling you
but even I can't hear myself cry
"D-Don't Don't leave"
i'm so scared
the only sound i hear
is the beating of my heart
and the only sight i see
is the spider, hanging deadunder your bed

I need you to feel my presence
Soon they'll come here
looking for me
so, "D-Don't Don't Leave"
what if I come out
and tell you that i'm not guilty
and that i'm not free

Will you pull me closer
and hug me
will you shut my ears
so that i don't hear them coming
will you hide here with me
will you close my eyes
so that i don't see death
will you love me
will you kiss me
will you tell me it'll all be okay
will you drive away my fears
please,
"D-Don't don't leave"
i'm here,
Eating myself
chewing my skin
drinking my own blood
i've bitten my nails
and pulled my hair
now, i'm taking my eyes out

CAN'T YOU HELP ME???
just "D-Don't Dont Leave"
oh god!!!
this is hell! much worst...
you are about to go
and i can hear them coming closer
as i cry
"D-Don't Don't Leave"

I stare at an abyss
Which stares back at me
oh i'm so f*ckin scared
and my mind stops to think
you are at the door
as i lie there miserably
so i run out
and face you
i look at you in the eye
As you stare at me, confused
i hod my breath and whisper
"D-Don't don't Leave"

I realize the coward i was
the looser i've been
Saying what i did
"D-DOn't don't Leave"
When you slap me hard
and answer...

(hmmmm.....what will the answer be????)

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