djjd62 wrote:it helps to be extremely cynical
love is just one of those oddly subjective things that are hard to pin down, like friendship or faith (look at the troubles on the S&R forum)
alot depends on what you want from love
love can be some idealized life of romance, flowers and passion
or it can be as coldly clinical as someone to look after you and pay the bills
look at people who put up with up abuse and still claim to love and be loved
love (like faith) attaches it self to our most base needs, without love we are nothing, nobody loves me, if i loved him more, he wouldn't hit me, cheat on me, etc, etc, etc
sense of self is more important than love in my book
djjd thank you for sharing this. Hmmm... cynical huh? Interesting. I don't know about that. I lived a lot of my life being cynical of everything and everyone. I was pretty miserable. No one could get close enough to even get to know "me". Then, living in the victim mentality, I blamed them. I felt it was their fault because they weren't trying hard enough to get to know me. I can understand the need to be cautious though. To not walk blindly into things. I can see why "love" would be hard to pin down. It's more than a feeling. I know that. It's more than just words.
I was watching late night tv about a year ago and I turned it to TLC. They had this show about male/female attractions and what causes it. They were talking about endorphins and how they give you that "rush" of feeling when you meet someone you are attracted to. How some people mistake that for love. The funniest part though was when they started talking about the people that go from partner to partner. They called them "endorphin junkies". LOL Said they would only stick with it as long as the "high" lasted. Endorphin junkies... what a hoot!
I think that's where all those "love sick" feelings come from. An initial high of emotions. I definitely agree that a sense of self is more important than finding "love". Or maybe that could even be said as loving yourself, in a healthy way of course. Accepting yourself for who you are rather than looking to others to fill that need. A lot of people in this world look to fill that sense of "self" through other people. Heaven knows I've fallen into that trap more than a few times! There's almost an idea of not being complete until you find your soul mate or something.
It's sad to think that though. That we could somehow be incomplete without another person there in our life. That would definitely be a source of discontentment for just about anyone. I guess though I would like to understand something here. How cautious are you talking about being here? Are you talking about looking suspiciously at anyone that would want to get to know you? Are you talking about keeping everyone at arms length until some sort of something is satisfied in your eyes that they can be trusted? How does all that work?