Suicide

here are a number of links for you to explore:


http://www.befrienders.org/



http://www.preventingsuicide.com/textonly/suicidehotlinestxt.asp




http://suicidal.com/depressionlinks/crisischart.html




Adolescent specialists:

http://www.focusas.com/Hotlines.html



http://www.therapistfinder.net/help/hotlines.html





These seem to be general sites to help people in crisis.

I gather they include online help......seemingly free as well as incurring a cost.





Some seem to say they have resources with people available quickly.

Good luck.

Here is an aid to finding help including on the net....it seems to search using info about where you are that you provide.

http://www.hopeline.com/ries.asp

Are you in the US? Take a look at this:

http://www.suicidehotlines.com/

Just remember. Problems are temporary. Suicide is final. Good luck, and let us know how you are doing.

not doing good.
i sent in msgs to all those places and they will contact me within 24 hours
but things are bad for me here getting worse. 24 hours is a really long time to me right now


i know suicide is forever, that is what appeals to me about it right now. i dont want to feel anything anymore. i havent been able to eat or sleep for awhile, and i havent left my house in so long. i cant go on like this. i just feel like, right now im very emotionally fragile, and if i go outside, something might happen to crush me even more. im actually living in my bathroom right now and i dont know why. it feels secure or something.
as u guys can probably tell im a complete wreck. i dont know what im going to do.

i appreciate all of you trying to help me. it has actually made me feel a tiny bit better, someone cares. even people who dont know me or anything about me, care enough to not want me to kill myself. i dont know how to explain but it means alot to me right now. more than alot. everything.

Hey. Stick around. Lots of good people here.

Do you think you would be able to talk on the phone? I don't know where you are, but if you open up your regular phone book, there should be crisis line numbers on one of the first pages. Near the police #s, emergency #s etc.
Those are usually 24-7; so you would be able to talk to someone right away. If you try, and you get a busy #, don't give up. They get a lot of calls, but you will get through. And once you do, they will stay on the phone with you for as long as you need.

I'm so glad you decided to reach out.

Does your local phone company have a suicide hotline? You could try just asking the telephone operator - or if the operator isn't local, try the local phone book.

Argh- Keep writing to us. Life is too precious to simply give up on it. There IS help for you, and we will help you find it. Hang in there!

Would writing about yourself, and how you got to this point, be comfortable for you to do?

Hello, Argh.

I'm glad you found A2K. flushd is right about a crisis line with 24 hour coverage. Also, the online places that said they'd get back to you within 24 hours might just get back to you within 24 minutes. They probably give you and outside limit, but hopefully you'll hear back from them sooner.

You're more than welcome to keep chatting here until someone gets back to you.

I saw your post on General and see that you don't have access to a phone. Is that because your in the bathroom or would you have to leave the house to get to a phone?

Argh- If you are in the bathroom, and don't have a phone, how are you communicating with us on A2K!

Still with us?

You'll find if you look around a bit that there are tons of people that care.

I can't believe that a suicide hotline would not immediately
attend to its callers. What good does it do, if they get back
to you within 24 hours? Defeats the purpose, eh?

Argh, I hope you're writing again. Good luck to you -
and remember there can't be a rainbow without rain.

Do the Samaritans still function?

Argh,

I am sorry you are feeling like this. But, isn't it possible that you don't want to die, that you just don't want to hurt anymore?

Please think about it. Look at the people on this thread that care about you already. Is caring like that something one should give up?

I know there has to be help for you Argh. There are many wonderful people on A2K that will come to your aid and encourage you and help you. Please let us help.

i cant talk about my problems to you guys, im sorry, you will think its a pretty stupid reason to kill yourself.

but i can drop a line in here to let you guys know im not dead.

i havent talked to anyone yet, hopefully soon.


ive just actually realised some things. if someone doesnt help me leave my house and ,my washroom soon, my internet will be cut off, and my heat and electricity.
i dont have a phone here, all i have is my laptop. but i have Aim, Msn, Icq, mIRC, and ventrillo, so i should be able to find someone with a same prog as me that i can talk to.

Argh--

You wrote:



Humans are different. I might not kill myself--or consider killing myself--for your reasons. What depresses me, you might be able to handle with great aplomb.

To my mind you are considering suicide for reasons that seem excellent to you. Under the circumstances you are the only one with an opinion that counts.

Hang in there.

Maybe your reason isn't as stupid as you think. The point it that it is important to you, and whatever it is, we respect that fact; you are the one in your situation. But - and I'm not trying to pry, not at all - if we had a clue, perhaps one of us could come up with something, anything, to make you feel less desperate.

The web site for the Samaritans, a suicide counseling service, is www.samaritans.org. They will listen; the won't judge.

Noddy and Tomkitten are so right Argh. When something upsets or depresses you, it is not silly. That is how YOU feel. That is the important thing. As you can see, many want to help you. The trouble is, we are all (I am sure) feeling rather helpless because we don't know what to do.

It's obvious that you WANT some help or you would not have posted here on A2K. That was your first step to getting help. You asked for it. The second step is to accept it.

I don't really know where to start. I guess the beginning would be the best place though.

When I was 12, I met this girl "Jane". We went to the same school, and we were in the same class. We started rebelling together, skipping school, smoking a little pot. Nothing really too bad. But we made such a bad habit of it, doing it all the time, and we started hanging out with these guys, older than us by 2-3 years. Eventually we started smoking weed all the time, and trying acid and mushrooms, and god only remembers what else. I don't really know how it happened, but we both eventually ended up smoking crack, and doing heroin. Jane had the really bad crack problem, and I was the heroin user, mostly. Anyways, by the time we were 14 or 15, everything had fallen out from under me. I was in and out of juvie (so was she), I ended up living in foster care, then on my own when I was 16. Basically we were just really messed up, young drug addicts.

When I was 17, I met a guy, fell in love, went to rehab (a few times), and started changing myself. I didn't just immediately stop doing drugs, it took me forever it seems. Jane was trying too I guess, she came to treatment with me once, and went to live with her dad.

As of now, I haven't done any drugs for a little over 2 years. I have my bad days, but I haven't broken down again.
Jane never quit, I tried to help her so many times, but she got Hepatitis C and HIV, and she just felt like her life was over, she didn't see the point in quitting anymore.

She died on my birthday, and most of our friends, and her family are outright blaming me for this.
I don't want to think this is my fault, but in a small way it is.
I was the one who was always saying "let's try this". And I was able to save myself, but somehow I couldn't save my best friend.
I left school, I can't stand to go anymore and face all our friends.
I can't leave my house anymore because I'm sick of the things people are saying. I just feel like maybe it would seem fairer somehow if I died too.

A part of me knows it's silly, but another huge part of me carries all this guilt over what I've done. I can never enjoy another birthday in my life.
I can't face anyone I know. Someone told me I'm basically a murderer who didn't break the law to do it. Dealing with the death of my friend has been hard enough, and feeling like it's my fault makes it a million times worse. I'm dealing with the hardest thing of my life, and everyone is against me on it.