vera979 wrote:
# 1. Him: I'll start with positive: Generally nice person, kind and caring in his way. Cooks well. Never has conflicts with my parents or anyone on my side of the family. Nice and friendly with my friends too.
Reasonably good looking. Has enough friends, wouldn't call him very private or introvert or anything like that. Traveled quite a bit.
These are all good reasons why you married him and it's good to remember those reasons when things get tough.
vera979 wrote:
Negative- Like I mentioned before. Not motivated, I'd say lazy. Not exciting. Not enthusiastic. Not a very good father at all.
This struck me. Was her ever a good father or has he always been lousy? And you only have one child, right? Perhaps, he just doesn't know
how to be a dad. Kids don't come with instructions (as you know) and maybe he seperates himself from his son because he is afraid of doing something wrong. It's happened before. Ask him about it.
vera979 wrote:
Does not read books!!!!! His English is bad and he always embarrasses me when he speaks English. Would never take me to a restaurant unless I really really ask for it. And if I go without him complains I waste money eating out....plus he stops and prevents me in many ways to achieve my aspirations.
I know plenty of people who would rather have their fingernails removed than read a book. There is nothing wrong with that.
I am sure his english has never been great so if it didn't bother you before, why now? Ask yourself why it would bother you. Most likely a little thing that has added up over time and now it bothers you to no end.
Maybe he doesn't think spending money on over priced food is a wise thing to do. This too is not unusual.
And why would he stop you from aspiring? Is he strapping you down? Belittling your dreams? What could he possibly be doing to hold you back?
vera979 wrote:
# 3. Other men. I do have a couple of men who would want to have serious relationship with me. I know both for many years almost a long as I know my husband. I do feel particularly attracted to another person.
I think I might be in love. I did see the difference of the kind of man I could have been with
He has everything I'm looking for in a man. I have known him for years too, the difference is , I think he knows about my feelings, he has some feelings for me, and yet it seems he is playing with me creating uncertainty between us so I cannot guess if he indeed interested in being with me or not
..He just hints that he would want to be with me, but always says " It's my biggest wish to be together , but understand that under the circumstances (meaning me being married) we cannot" or something of this sort. Seems like he is just playing, that's all. I can't figure him out.
Well, I was looking for that reason why suddenly all these things that your husband has always done are bothering you now and here it is, in black and white. You are looking for them. A reason to get out of your marriage. You have NO business messing around with this guy, emotionally or physically, which is probably why he hasn't been straight forward about his feelings toward you. He is probably uncomfortable with the fact that you are married. Stop this insane infatuation before it gets out of hand or leave your husband.
vera979 wrote:
# 4 Dilemma. I do have a child. Do not want to do anything that would ultimately harm my son. I am a woman and want to be happy with a relationship with a man I love, respect, look up to, want
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Let me spell this out very simply. L-E-A-V-E You have already decided what you want and that is not your husband. Your child is going to be emotionally damaged if you continue to live like this. Kids know. They see. Get out and start this life you think will be so much better. Maybe it will be. But maybe it won't. I think you've decided. Now do it.