you have been touched by his noodly appendage and you shall glow..
Hehehe..
Honestly, given all the problems you have, resting heart rate of almost 100.. you cant eat ENOUGH to keep your self satisfied, mood swings.. etc.
this may be a small sacrifice to get some well needed normalicy to yourlife.
Things have beenvery hard for you.. this could be the perfect solution.
At least, I hope it is.
I want to hear that you get better and that you can live a happy life instead of being scared of your body all the time. :-(