Here is a recollection of mine... some babblings... I am hoping this recollection of thought will lead to some "reflection" between your own soul and spirit.
It is about a particular journey into my own "self".
I was in my early twenties. This was after my re-conversion back to Christianity... We are not just born again and suddenly boop! We know all the answers. This is how some "Christians" are...
A person
newly born again person has no more Christian character than a person not born again. The newly born again person though now has a source with which to grow and change the mind. It is the inner person/image that is changed at the new "birth"...
As you can see when writing about the Bible, I write in a critical form. Meaning, I break down every possible constituent and draw conclusions from the simplest of components. Also, looking at the scope of things shows a verity to my methods.
Back to my story...
So when my mind began to become filled with all of these "Christian" concepts, I did not really know what to do with them. I did not know how to quantify or qualify them, categorize them, organize them into a pattern that would be easily mentally retrievable yet make some sort of sense as a whole.
I am sure but I think there are not too may Christians who spend their time wondering how they are going to organize Christianity in their mind... Words like faith, righteousness, charity, temperance, spirit, and of course, demon, etc... I called these "Bible Words". They and many others seemed to have originated from the Bible and were discussed in minute detail. I wanted a road map in my mind...
In my high school days I had an uncanny mind for memorizing things...
It started with musical lyrics from songs and my own writing... Then it went out into things like my English prepositions of which I have never met a person who still has their prepositions memorized... I still do... Then there came geometry. I loved geometry. It represented the height of all mental processes. It had both left and right brain perfectly balanced.
Geometry is reason and logic but it is also rule and order.
So I set about memorizing my assumptions, theorems, corollaries etc... I got in one year so proficient at it that the teacher would no longer call on me until the entire class was stumped... Of course I had an A+ in geometry. Half way through geometry I switched to another school and took up the second half of my geometry in a private school and they did not even know how to formulate a proof... let alone have their geometry memorized.
How does this all relate to the Bible? Well having a mind that has a reason for every statement and considers this progression of thought out to it's complete or exhaustive conclusions, I sought this same process in biblical thought. I wanted to find the image of God... the blueprint, the outline of creation.
Was God a square? Was God a triangle? Was God Pi? The myriad of possibilities in 3d and 2d patterns in nature were boggling... But I was relentless to find it. I just assumed God would leave us a map to understand these words like "love"... To understand the "maiden clothed with the sun and the moon at her feet"... So the zodiac was a contender for this "map" I was searching for.
I also seriously considered the periodic table of elements... When I laid this table over the Bible it seemed to fit..
This table was a natural gradient of all "created" elements... I wondered if there was a message in the periodic table... That somehow love was hydrogen... and all other forms of love were refined in the elements going from solids to vapors... For a time this seemed to answer it... But I felt unsure and this model did not answer things like the crucifixion, redemption of mankind and it's display all of the dynamics of the scope relating to the total Christian experience.
So I scraped the periodic table idea... I had not yet found the answer I was searching for.
I was not really even sure what I was searching for... A visual representation, a map, a diagram, a matrix, possibly an array of sets and subsets that would place in my mind all of the concepts of compassion and pity, greed and envy, charity, kindness and goodness...
So all of these concepts just seemed to swirl around in my mind and have no real place to logically attach themselves.
I am not sure how but one day it clicked in my head and I figured it out...
The image I sought was the human body.. not a triangle or square, not the periodic table of elements or the zodiac...
That in understanding the human body one sees the grand "map" of how God relates to us. We can readily attach these biblical allegorical concepts to the human body and it interfaces with the story perfectly.
This was when I realized the inner person. A person totally separate from the outer person.
I was imagining a periodic table inside of myself... Suddenly this table became a living functioning human being.
I then saw this inner person in the Bible's teachings... This was why I got A's in college psychology.
The Bible taught me psychology. Who knows the human mind better than God?
Ephesians 1:18
The
eyes of your understanding being enlightened; that ye may know what is the
hope of his calling, and what the riches of the
glory of his inheritance in the saints,
Comment:
Does your "understanding" have literal eyes? Your head has eyes and you face has eyes but does your understanding have "eyes"?
Ephesians 3:16
That he would grant you, according to the riches of his glory, to be strengthened with might by his Spirit in the
inner man;
Ephesians 4:24
And that ye put on the
new man, which after God is
created in righteousness and true holiness.
Colossians 3:10
And have put on the
new man, which is
renewed in knowledge after the
image of him that created him:
Romans 8:27
And he that searcheth the hearts knoweth what is the
mind of the Spirit, because he maketh intercession for the saints according to the
will of God.
Romans 12:2
And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the
renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.
Comment:
This inner man is the spirit of Christ. This "inner" person has feet that need to be "conditioned" to be able to run... a heart and stamina to compete in the arena of the mind. This "inner" person needs to have hands to perform mechanical spiritual exercises and to heal...
loins = commitment center of the will.
heart = believing center of the will
feet = action center of the will
All of this preformed in unison by the inner person...
The inner person complete in commitment, faith and action. The inner person is "perfect". This inner person is who we "should" identify ourselves with... When we learn from the virtues of the inner person then our "minds" are taught. As our minds through truth become what it contemplates and understands the outer soul is then nourished by the inner spirit.
It is amazing how most people are so unknowledgeable about some of the simplest aspects of Christianity. When Christianity is laid out simply to them... and it is simple... they are perplexed. Because they are so used to perceiving the external reality of the soul that the internal reality of the spirit seems foreign...