Faking it

So I fake about 80% of my orgasms and this is a source of insecurity for me because I get stressed about taking to long which makes it even harder so I give up and fake it.
I reached out to my husband and told him it was a source of insecurity and asked if it would be ok to ask for more of other things after he has come in order for me to get off as well. The only lie I told was how often. I told him it wasn’t often because I didn’t want to risk making him insecure about himself or offending him because he’s ‘not good enough’. These are also why I don’t ask for more and just settle on the fake since he can’t tell anyways.

He told me “ I mean I would have preferred you been honest to begin with because now I’m trying to figure out how often you fake your orgasms” and “ That’s honestly something you probably should have kept to yourself I’m glad you were honest but that’s not something I want to know because now I’m thinking there is something wrong with me” (copy and pasted texts)

I immediately regretted saying anything and started to apologize for saying anything and feeling really anxious and insecure.
He then preceded to tell me “ I’m sorry but it’s a turn off I’m not going to lie to you” talking about me not coming during the deed.

Now I feel like absolute **** and wish I had never said anything at all and I don’t know what to do or how to make myself feel better