I am sorry that you feel that way I want the best for for the O.P. I also want the best for you and the other people on this site.
You are all in NY prayers. I believe that you need to experience the love of God.
You are not a Christian Neal. Stop pretending.
Jesus was worried about immigrants, and people in jail and people who were hungry. You are nothing like Jesus and you ignore what Jesus said.
The fruit of the Spirit are "fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control." I see none of that in your posts. Quite the opposite. You are here to insult people for a nasty political ideology that Jesus would have never dreamed of.