Frankly, I just wanted to get it over with.
Didn't hurt that the guy was good looking, and understanding that I was nervous.
You don't have to have sex only with people you think you'd have a future with you know.
Some of the best sex I've had were with people I would have no desire to even have a relationship with.
I don't go for the brainwashing that you have to only have sex with "the one".