I just don't understand most of it. How does being nice AF to ppl or looking up to them make me creepy? People say those are good things but at the same time are creeped out when I do it.
This question is what psychologists are for. Precisely why
, may require a psychiatrist (the only person qualified to study the chemical / electrical signals of the brain as applied to psychology).
If it were at all possible, a high resolution replay of your days interactions would probably answer a lot of questions - if neither you nor others knew you were being filmed. Unfortunately, that sort of footage is nigh on impossible.
The thing is - you won't get your answers from this forum. You will get generic answers, guestimate answers, but nothing with true specifics, because it's not possible to get into true specifics on a forum (that requires a lot of question & answer, with tone / hesitation / pitch / volume etc informing on the questions to ask)