Well all.....just wanted to update those of you who so faithfully stood by with me while I flipped out, tore out my hair, berated my husband, tried to knock off all rush hour drivers, cried, ranted, raved and was generally depressed.
Good news! I am into month two of my new "medication" (bc pills, no anti-depressants) and things are looking up! I still have moments where I want to burst into tears but for the most part, I am able to hold on to the edge without plummeting over into Despair. Even my husband said I am able to control myself better. And that was what I wanted. For the first time in a long time, I feel like I am able to control the way I am feeling. I can't believe it.
I didn't even want to take anyone out this morning on my way into work.
Will keep you updated but just wanted to say thanks to everyone who offered up advice and support.