Relationship (long story sorry)

Its on the internet, and yes I know "omg you fool, long distant relationships never work!" Etc. But I’m 19. And **** it I like him. Met him online, started chatting on a VoIP (discord) he has my favourite type of humour. Very dry and sarcastic. Edgy. Likes video games like me, very clever, etc, a connection I’ve never felt with any person before. Best person I’ve met so far. Lets call him anon .One problem, I’m also a guy. *deep sigh*. Initially I thought I was 100% straight, but no! Godamn brain and its constantly changing tendencies! Don’t really know what I am (I’m told maybe biromantic?). Anyway a fee months passed after we first met online and we opened up more to each other and i noticed he started making very gay remarks to me (e.g. I wanna see a dick, some guy he saw in public looked hot) and I first just shrugged them off as jokes. But then they became more personal (saying he loved me several times, making sexual sounds when talking to me) so both me and another friend asked him if he were gay, he said "ew no lol… but I can be gay if you want me to". Tf does that even mean. More months passed, and I told him that I thought I was bisexual. And a week or two later, one day something happened. I cant remember it fully but it was something like: I said "do you love me?" And he said "yeah". It was odd, but I was over joyed. I’d never felt this before. I’d heard stories of love etc and even seen it myself, but I never thought I possible for me to have a chance. Anyway for a while it was kind of a blur of euphoria. Id never been so happy in my life. Aaanyway two weeks after that, some kid I invited to my server (which we all talk in) started to stir up trouble between my friends and acted like a huge dick to them. Massive prick. Guess who befriends him. Anon. They start doing everything together while this huge pan of drama starts to boil over, and my past neutral acts of diplomacy starts to wain. And then one night, when everyone is offline except me and Anon, we were talking and I cant remember what we were talking about, something about past relationships he had and love, and he just said “Oh, you know I don’t actually love you right? Its just a joke”…. I cried for several days. Maybe a week. It was like someone had just kicked me in the stomach, but the pain from it never went away for about 2 weeks. But worst of all, it all felt like I was part of some sick joke, in his fantasy world. Like I had been used. He sent me this (copied from a message he sent me “All I said was, I don't like you in the way you like me. If you are going to be sad all the time then I don't want to be around you. This what happened between us, will happen more often and you can't just be sad everytime this happens. So what I want to say with that is, get your **** together and move on. I'll let you make a desicion, we're going to move on and leave it OR I will leave. I can't be asked to constantly feel bad for something you missunderstud. I have been rejected so many time and I wasn't sad all the time, because I can move on. So please just forget about it and let us just be NORMAL again. This might let me be an asshole but I don't care, I just wanted to tell you this. “

This confused me, and kind of annoyed me. Basically, a message telling me to get over it, and that I misunderstood him?? Maybe he is right and I misunderstood idk. But I didn’t know. The stuff he said was sooo… convincing. So real. Anyway. He wanted some time away from me which was fair enough, and during these few days I pull myself together and ask the others in the server what they thought about the whole thing. A young 13 year old said he thought the love thing was a joke, another friend (about 16 at the time) said he thought it was real. People I talked to who didn’t know Anon were all very shocked, saying things like “sounds like a dick, forget about him, etc” I love him, he’s not a dick. At least not to me.
But this new kid who was at the time, still breaking apart our whole friendship circle (well described by one of his ex friends as; a cancer or infection). And drama was rife in the server between us all, and I tried to stay as neutral as possible. But eventually I was called for action (me being the server owner). I demanded a fair trail kind of thing and votes etc. so they agreed, and we did. The vote was a kick from the server. But if I kicked Anons new best bud he would likely follow suit and leave also. This seemed highly likely after what had just happened between us. So I didn’t do it. and so this infectious twat kept doing what he did best. Infected everyone. First it was Anon, and he started taking side with him on EVERYTHING. Logical or not logical, totally disregarding us all, then the 13 year old. Poor kid. But me and another didn’t buy into his ****. And huuge arguments would happen on a daily basis. It was awful. Eventually is somehow calmed down, and the didn’t come on anymore. And when the fag wasn’t there to have sides backing him, I laid down what he had done. And we all agreed in the end he was a massive dick. So. Yeah. I guess that brought us together. But anyway im kind of rambling here. THIS GUY I STILL LOVE HIM SEND HELP, I STILL TALK TO HIM EVERY NIGHT AND ITS KILLING ME AHAGAHA.
Also well done if you gotten this far. Extra points for you good sir.
I will be posting this elsewhere for extra chance of eyes to see it.
Thanks if you can be bothered to read/answer.