My point is why is it even necessary to establish? You are focusing on this "higher" power. But why? The point I am making is that it is YOU who is doing or not doing. The "higher" power is not involved in any way. So I don't get the point in establishing the "higher" power.
It is you who chooses sobriety at this moment. It is you who decides that you want to be sober at this moment. It is you, no-one, nothing else, just you. So why establish a "higher" power?
Krumple, nothing is the whole reason why I drank or why I quit.
Why did I drink? Fun? Letting go of inhibitions? To relax? To fit in? Escape the rigors of life? Because it is a cheap high? To soothe back pain? Because it is a disease? The reasons can be endless.
No one thing is the reason why I drank they all contributed to that rationale. When done responsibly, drinking can be pleasurable... (another reason)
By the same token. There is no one reason why I have quit.
The gentle urging of others? Health reasons? Fear of the unknown? Recklessness and lack of composure? Shame?
But when one finds they are powerless to stop it is like drowning. When you are drowning you do not first question why you reach out for help. You do not sink and debate before reaching out, is this by my own compulsion or that of something else? When weakness and fatigue set in and one is drowning it is impossible to do it on your own. You just reach out for dear life to a higher power and cling to it for safety.
When you realize you cannot swim to the shore on your own volition you swallow your pride and surrender your life over to whatever will fulfill your need for survival.
No one reason is why you reach out. It is not only because of the sun but the promise of a bright sunny future is "part of the reason".
Regaining health is another "part of the reason"...
Your loving friends and their own testimony this is also "part of the reason", because you want what they have.
An end to the craziness could be a reason alone... But still it is still only "part of the reason".
All those reasons and many more compel you to reach out for safety. You do not need to cling to one reason alone while losing sight of the other reasons. When your body weakens you cannot swim it alone, we go through life doing the dead man's (person's) float.
They all add up to a complete picture and with them to motivate, one strives for wholeness and deliverance from the pitfalls of alcoholism.
They are all a higher power and I do not need to analyze who made the choice. A choice alone is not enough, it is only "part" where another part is in the doing. Just like prayer alone is worthless without supplication.
Sure, I can pick one reason, but I would be ignoring many other reasons. And if I must factor in my pride and my own stubbornness and tendency to habitual behavior and, oh yea... "weakness".
Why do some people get tired when they swim and drown? Support.
Some can't always do it on their own... This is powerlessness. I can either realize that is my case or die in constant failure. I can desire to live but lack the support. It is not one thing but many factors.
Why do some continue to drink? Weakness. And each new drinking spell renders them weaker and the tide and ocean swells pulls them further from the shore.
We time and again sink lower and reach the bottom of the "barrel" 'til death is the only way further down.
I decided to reach for help to something higher that is above my defeated state. Something with more power than me.
I made a choice for something else amid utter failure in the hope that something, anything higher could help where I had continuously failed.
I found help and that helped me obtain the desire to rise from the depths of failure and prevail over my illness, one day at a time.
A choice to survive is not always enough, some desperately need and require support from things that give hope and security.
Some will drown without this help. And it is not just one thing, like courage that helps us survive. Courage is only "part of the reason", it takes a whole myriad of reasons for most to overcome this disease. Some do it alone, don't boast... It only displays ignorance of the subtlety of the disease.
It behooves us to utilize every reason to ensure success.
Some reasons can be delusional, merely a mirage, and some can be of great power. Choose wisely...
One can never be too sure of success...