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I may have been more progressed than you, I tried to do it alone and failed many times.

It really hit my pride realizing I could not do it alone.

So, I was wrong... I am not as strong as I presume to be. I hate to be wrong.

I need to get over it and accomplish what I have set out to do in life.

I certainly will not accomplish that drunk.

Thank you for your confidence Edgar.

My shortsightedness says to focus on each day until I have distance between me and the bottle, or can, or something with an umbrella and fruit in it.

My higher power is not God, it is the sun.

A dumb old blob in the sky.

It is not something I imagine, it is there and I see it nearly every day.

It is higher and it is power.

In AA, luckily I get to choose my own higher power.

The sun gives me strength but strength is not magic... Strength gradually grows and is awakened in someone.

When I close my eyes and pray, it is the sun I see in my mind illuminating the darkness of my inner being.

I pray for life, vitality and strength, even on a cloudy day the sun's rays are touching me, and out to the farthest reaches of our solar system and beyond. Are there powers higher than the sun? I don't know for sure.

The sun created my addiction in the ethyl alcohol it created in plants

The lord giveth and the lord taketh away....

When we become powerless we seek power to replenish the void of emptiness.

focus on each day

Krumple

Sorry I had to leave this morning on errands.

I am an agnostic... I do not know if there is a God or not. I prefer uncertainty over believing or disbelieving with such fervent adamancy that I become radical.

Uncertainty keeps me centered in reality.

I do believe the sun is a power of such great magnitude and awe, of this I do not doubt.

It is a power much greater than anything else I "know" of, pulling the planets with it, light years though space.

I can perceive in the possibility of God, but I do not know this God like I know and believe in the sun.

This is about honesty...

The sun is a higher power. This is not debatable in my logic.

Is the sun God? That is debatable.

Is the sun a grandiose source of wonder? Most certainly.

Can the sun prevent me from drinking alcohol?

Well, it is much better than a lucky dead rabbit's foot or a prayer to an invisible being that may or may not even exist.

I do not need to imagine the sun, it is there and even when it is not there it is sending rays of even imperceptible light in a steady stream touching me as I am always connected to the sun. It is always with me, like a God.

The sun nourishes me every day (vitamin D) and it gives me warmth like a close friend or a warm touch (heat). Like something that is living and breathing life.

We are conditioned by society to not worship the sun because of our religious culture that calls this worship "paganism" or "pantheism" and belittles the reverence of the sun.

I “know” of no higher power, light giver and life giver.

We can now discuss "quality of life". Without the sun most flowering trees and plants will not bear fruit.

One can live their life in darkness where there is very little light, or one can live where light is resplendent and abundant.

One cannot ignore the analogy of light and how light reveals things once hidden in the dark.

Darkness is like a deep sleep where one awakens at the sunrise and greets a new day.

Sobriety is very much like a new day and we are greeted by the sun on our way to a new life. The sun illuminates our consciousness and lifts a veil of old ways in a transformation like exiting a cocoon and flying away in the form of a butterfly.

So yes, I do hold the sun in the highest regard, I have most of my life even when I used to be religious.

But I left fantasy religion for rationale and science, and the sun withstood all of my criticism to prevail above all other forms of veneration.

I prefer the sun over any other “known” power…

If one lets the light shine within, it can illuminate the the dark recesses of a life that has lost its meaning and purpose.

We all grow towards the sun.

The idea of a higher power is to have focus and remind oneself that they are not omnipotent or in charge of everything.

For many alcoholics there's a built in desire too always be in charge of very last thing and to then act upon it even to the point of self destruction and/or to full out annihilation of self, others and any future. This causes damage everywhere. In family, friends, workplace, living space - all relationships. Having a higher power to turn to means acknowledgement of limitations and and turning the matter over to another.

Are you an alcoholic?

Trust me, for people such as myself, there truly was no control. Especially once the alcohol hit my system and set the tumult in motion. There were times when I could not keep from picking up the first drink. That pattern continued until I was able to fully admit needing help.

I'm not saying this is the case for all alcoholics.. We are all individuals and are traveling our own roadways. Is there anything wrong with choosing a roadway where we let go of our ego and ask for something, anything to help. If that bothers you so much, look inside yourself and ask, why? because it shouldn't.

I'm not saying this is the case for all alcoholics.. We are all individuals and are traveling our own roadways. Is there anything wrong with choosing a roadway where we let go of our ego and ask for something, anything to help. If that bothers you so much, look inside yourself and ask, why? because it shouldn't.