@jerlands,
There is only one God. There is only one message of salvation he is telling us. You are one part of that message. One very important part of that message. God didn't need you in the message. You are living in the message so you can learn to understand it. God doesn't need you to understand it. He wants you to understand it because he wants you to understand he loves you and the message is for you. Your mistakes are part of the message for you to learn. In the end he's going to fix all the mistakes like you never committed them. All your mistakes whether there's five or 50,000 are going to be counted as one mistake and he's going to fix it. As long as you ask him to.