i know it's so scarey
i am so confused.
the wedding is 5 months away, i have everything planned and even a dress.
he feels steongly that i cheated because i took a mental break after some bad feelings and cold feet. We had alot of changes to accept about our lives and have been engaged for a year already. He was a single man, and when we met i was me and my son, finishing up a divorce and custody battle. That had been years in the making and i finally won custody of my daughter. So then we were 4. He has never been married, no children, lived rhe fast life before meeting me. so to speak. he says i changed his view points about life and he a family. But then it was hard becaude he wasnt used to the aort of family life. He grew up inner city and i grew up in the country with my dad. So we have alot of differences. So we've had out fair share of problems. I ended up having to take a short mental break from the relationship (where I stayed faithful, but just distant) to tey to sort out all of my feelings about how to lead a life with the changes needed for a marriage and try to decide if I can compromise on what was being asked of me. I had to overcome some things that were said inappropriately to a friend of his, a constant barrage of women trying to intrude on our new relationship, and also had to contend with a very inappropriate online chatroom he was in. So i had to decide and I needed time to think about this before getting married. all of those things were difficult for me to deal with going into a new relationship, and i had a hard time withit after the proposal. I am sure that it takes time to rid yourself of all the extras when youre in a relationship, but it's like there's always someone from the past popping up out of the blue. Yea I'm a little jealous, but nothing unhealthy. We all are at times, i just asked for reapect and acknowledgement and never got it.
When I began to reconnect and start focusing on what was important again the accusations of me cheating started heavily, and have been relentless since we've moved into this new apartment. I have been accused of cheating worh 6 seperate men over a few sunflower seeds, some missing gloves, and because i like to wear my make up.
i get bruises alot, but my son that i have to deal with is heavy and i am petite. i am also just that clumsy. no doubt.
i love and care avout him so idk what to think.
the fact that i am accused so relentlessly over sunflower , missing gloves, and misplaced shoes raises flafs for me that make me suspicious myself.