Anyways... I apologize.

But that's just how you came off to me. I'm glad that you're in school and want to make your own way into this world, in fact, that's awesome! I wish more woman around our ages would come to their senses! I have too many long-time childhoold friends that ended up having babies.. getting married.. or both. It just makes me sad, that at their prime, they want to waste it all away.
Some may argue that marriage and/or childbirth at a young age may be a blessing, and I suppose either one of those could bring a lot of happiness, or even the center of their happiness, and there's nothing wrong with that. I really mean that. But there are so many things out there, I just don't understand why someone could just give that away. Marriage and kids, they can always come later. Your youth and freedom from both child and marital responsibilites? Those days are short and numbered.
I just want to say that I appluad you for going to school. My crusade in this matter will never end!!! But I hope you do understand that even though the saying goes, "Age ain't nothin' but a number," but it really does matter. a 19 year age difference seems so medieval. Although it can be possible for two people to connect, regardless of age, it doesn;t happen much now-a-days. I wish the best of luck to you, and keep expanding your mind!
I'll share something my father has always told me.. "Work on yourself before you try to work on a relationship."