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I hit my boyfriend after he grabbed me. How do we work it out???

 
 
Reply Mon 2 May, 2016 02:57 pm
Me and my boyfriend have been dating for 9 months and we've been going through a lot of trouble for a long while now. It started with little fights and now they have escalated. He has some anger problems and has trouble trusting me. He has never hit me. However, when I try to leave he keeps me from doing so. In a fight I will say I want to leave and if I try he will grab me to keep me from going. He really is sweet and I love him. After all that has happened I don't think I can trust him completely either. Currently we aren't dating but we are around each other a lot and are "working things through". Anyways most of our issues have been because of his trust and anger problems and insecurity problems. He thinks I look at other guys and is paranoid about the fact that I might masturbate. Also, he has recurring dreams that I cheat on him or leave him for someone else. I don't give off the vibe of cheating on someone AT ALL. I'm very very trustworthy and have never given him a reason to think otherwise.

I'll get to the point. One day I was sitting and we were fighting and he said he wanted to go somewhere else to talk and I said I didn't want to. After arguing for several minutes about the fact that I wasn't going anywhere with him he got hysterical to the point where he mentioned going so crazy because of me he wanted to kill himself(he has tried to kill himself before while we were in the relationship). Then he pinch my leg twice really really hard and the next day I had bruises(they were small but still there).

Afterward he pulled me into somewhere where people couldnt see and grabbed me and wouldnt let me leave and I slapped him. Not hard at all. It wasn't right to hit him but he basically didn't say anything about it because he had hurt me earlier.

We were broken up for a few weeks after that because I told him I couldn't be with someone who did that to me and left bruises on my leg. He has never been violent before. But due to school we are constantly around each other so we had the chance to talk and I always forgive no matter what and have never been one to hold grudges because it's like I physically can't. So we got back together and I forgave him for the whole incident as long as it didn't happen again.

We've still had nasty fights since then but no violence. He still never let me leave an argument and claimed he didn't feel loved or cared about when I tried to leave. I always thought when the argument go too heated the two people should cool down and come back and finish the conversation after but he never agreed with that.

I didn't mention this but he agreed his anger/trust/insecurity problem get in the way of the relationship and is a huge problem that isn't my fault. But it keeps becoming my fault it seems one way or another.

About a week ago, we were in the hallway and we were talking and I wanted to go to class and told him that but he kept grabbing me and not letting me walk. He wouldn't let me go to class. And when I would push through him he would push me into a locker bay where no people were. This happened before school and before first period. Before first period he pushed me into a locker bay and told me he was trying to help me but I said he wasn't help and that I wanted to go to class and not stay there and that he couldn't force me to stay because you just can't do that. He didn't listened and when I tried to walk past again he grabbed me and wouldn't let me pass. My left had winded up and hit him across the face really really hard. His glasses fell off. He looked at me with surprise and hurt and said "I'm telling the office on you".

I felt awful, completely and utterly crappy. I knew I shouldn't have done that and I love him so much and you shouldn't hit people you love. But then I thought how was I suppose to get him to stop grabbing me and the situation was confusing. I kept telling him to stop but he wouldn't. He went to the office and told the secretary(a family friend) who would keep the situation quiet. She told him to tell the principal and get me expelled for physical violence in school. He talked to the counselor and the counselor said it was not his fault at all. When he told this to me I felt sick. I knew it was wrong but it's like he didn't realize grabbing me was wrong. He said he explained it to the counselor exactly as it had happened and that's what he said.

How the relationship is now that we've talked and says what I did emotionally scarred him and that I gave him a reason not to trust me(although he never trusted me in the first place). And he says we have to see how it goes to see if the relationship will work out anymore. He doesn't know if he can be with me anymore. Which I find completely fair. But if the relationship continues he needs to realize that you can't yell and grab me.

So am I completly wrong? What the counselor right? and do you think the relationship is doomed? We do have very deep talks about fixing the relationship and he agreed he should see someone about his anger. (I don't think he would ever hit me, but he did leave bruises so would he?) A lot of things have happened but I know we love each other and we have fun together and we are good friends and are very comfortable around each other. We are both honest, trustworthy people who have big hearts. I just don't understand how this relationship went so downhill.
 
jespah
 
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Reply Mon 2 May, 2016 03:09 pm
@hammyfunsize,
Do you really want to hang around long enough to find out what happens if you stay?

This is toxic. You both have anger issues. This will not end well. Get out now.
farmerman
 
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Reply Mon 2 May, 2016 04:54 pm
@jespah,
I think HE should take the road for the very same reason. There is no implicit license for violence just because a woman is the perp.
FOUND SOUL
 
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Reply Mon 2 May, 2016 04:55 pm
@hammyfunsize,
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In a fight I will say I want to leave and if I try he will grab me to keep me from going. He really is sweet and I love him.


In my opinion, you get along because you are both "in-secure". Look at the above quote. You see him grabbing you as love. So you bate him "in my opinion" constantly stating you want to leave, so that he grabs you. That to you makes him sweet and in love with him.

But from in-security comes other reactions / actions. Both of which has been staged, you both have anger issues.

Your councelor is correct.

Work on yourself first to understand how to be you, stand tall and only accept people into your life that don't have trust issues. You'd be suprised at what a "real" relationship can feel like, not a toxic one.
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PUNKEY
 
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Reply Mon 2 May, 2016 07:25 pm
You two are heading down a path where someone is going to get really hurt. He provokes you then you get violent, then it's vice versa the next time.

Yet you say he's "so sweet."

I have no advice for you. He's got an anger issue and you have codependent issues.

Are you in high school?
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bobsal u1553115
 
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Reply Mon 2 May, 2016 09:38 pm
You mean after you have him arrested and served with a restraining order?

By never communicating again.

The sad truth is the bar for acceptable behavior has been lowered and you are at risk.
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ossobuco
 
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Reply Mon 2 May, 2016 10:14 pm
If some guy was trapping me in a place (that has happened, but rare) I would fight if I could. That it came down against you after a report, that smells.

You two need to de-escalate. His trapping you may not have been all that serious, certainly I don't know, but it gives you a glimpse of a possible future.
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ossobuco
 
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Reply Mon 2 May, 2016 10:16 pm
If some guy was trapping me in a place (that has happened, but only once) I would fight if I could. That it came down against you after a report, that smells.
Did you get to give your side of the situation? Did you fail to speak up? did anyone represent you?

You two need to de-escalate. His trapping you may not have been all that serious, certainly I don't know, but it gives you a glimpse of a possible future.
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CoastalRat
 
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Reply Tue 3 May, 2016 06:44 am
You two do not need to be in a relationship. End it. Stay away from each other. You are both headed for trouble.

As an aside, I seriously doubt he told the whole story when he went to the office. Otherwise, a neutral adult would have explained to him that he was as much at fault as you for putting his hands on you and not allowing you to go about your business.
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jespah
 
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Reply Tue 3 May, 2016 07:02 am
@farmerman,
Oh, I hope that wasn't implied. Both should get out. This is a situation just begging for someone to end up in the ER or jail.
bobsal u1553115
 
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Reply Tue 3 May, 2016 07:08 pm
@jespah,
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This is a situation just begging for someone to end up in the ER or jail.


If they stay together its almost inevitable.
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