@Angel23,
Hi, angel. We've talked for years. I have probably "barked" at you early on in our conversations. I like your pluck. I don't know if you know that old fashioned word, something I used to hear years ago about people who keep going and trying.
I'm glad you are in college. I've long thought that you are quite bright (you have rather good language ability, that is obvious, and good reasoning ability that can get waylayed), but have had confusion, which of course you well know about .
On other people? A lot of other people will have no clue about Formal Thought Disorder - I'd not heard of it, but begin now to understand. Knowledge can be power. In a way, you can educate the rest of us. Keep it up with whatever psychologists are working with you.