Do I have a chance to be with any of these guys or should I forget about them all ?

I'm confused with my emotions between boys I think one actually really likes me but the other one is questionable but I just don't know plus the one that's questionable I honestly like him still I try to let him go but I can't I really love him Yeah exactly so idk how to feel Honestly because the one I love so much that I can't let go at first he treated with respect we were cool and then we just had our time period were we fought a lot and now we both came to peaceful sentences and now he is in college and he treats me like a lady it's so cute I haven't seen this side of him since our last fight saying how much he changed I guess he really took that into consideration because now it's like he's a gentle heart towards me it's so cute like I could melt So last Friday I was messing with him in church he's my crush and his name is Tosan who is also my pastors son and he is 7months older than me lol and he is in his first year of college and so I was greeting him lol and it was funny because he greeted me quietly so I didn't here him and I'm like no you didn't he was like yes I did it was funny and I was like no you didn't because I didnt here you you got to project your voice lol and he was like I'm sorry I'm sorry lol I was laughing there was no need for him to apologize I wonder what that means Also I helped out last time and he all said thank you mad loud and his brother looked at him and he was like what I'm just saying thank you I was laughing he also says goodnight to me sometimes It's so cute and just last Sunday he literally brushed pass me quickly lol and he literally starting trouble with me his whole side of his body touched me Like me I looked back but he continued walking and didn't return my gaze idk what that means What do you say Like that's why I'm confused with his actions I love him but idk him brushing me this past Sunday was confusing What does that actually mean When a guy does that Do I have a chance or no plus there is Raheem who goes to our school He's overly sweet to me he is very cute lol but idk even though we have a lot of chemistry and what not I don't have any kind of feelings like I don't get butterflies or anything like its like my body won't allow me to obtain feelings idk why and then their is Jason he was actually me school crush from last year like I see him so much in school all he does is stare at me in the hallway and he doesn't even try to talk to me and then Tosan I am way over him at least I thought but I still might like him and the thing is I only had real feelings towards him for years and after all the drama I had it's like my heart is just scared or in shock and doesn't want to grasp feelings to someone else it's like not allowing me it's like almost it's hoping to stay true to someone I don't even like no more at least I thought which doesn't make sense I let go mentally but my heart won't let go physically it's crazy man and Raheem is honestly very sweet he ask me how am I doing what classes I have he watches me when I'm arguing with my friends for play and he's smiling laughing and he's always messing with me he's like really concerned with me like he just loves being involved in my life he even notices me in my other classes and if he needs help he actually asks me and tells me all the time I'm really smart and he's always challenging me it's really cute and he actually stares at me to so idk he is sweet and everything but my heart won't allow me I'd get it so what do you think?

here is some background information about each:

Ok so Raheem's actions towars me =he is honestly very sweet he ask me how am I doing what classes I have he watches me when I'm arguing with my friends for play and he's smiling laughing and he's always messing with me he's like really concerned with me like he just loves being involved he even notices me in my other classes and if he needs help he actually asks me and tells me all the time I'm really smart and he's always challenging me it's really cute and he actually stares at me to so idk he is sweet and everything

Raheem as person = humorous likes to smile chill relaxed very smart independent likes to have fun.

Jason's actions towards me = one of my friends friends went behind my back and told Jason I liked him he only responded oookay but he didn't violate me or anything compared to the girl Maria he violated her before she can even speak and he didn't do that to me plus every Time I see him he just stares at me he doesn't say anything.

Jason as a person = confident a flirt a tease breaking the rules kind of boy he is the bad boy type he is adventurous but he is smart he just chooses to get involved in drama but he still goes to class he just goes late.

Tosan's actions towards me = Honestly he is the one I love so much that I can't let go at first he treated me with respect we were cool like friends and then we just had our time period were we fought a lot and we acted like a married couple when we fight and now we both came to peaceful terms and now he is in college and he treats me like a lady it's so cute I haven't seen this side of him since our last fight saying how much he changed I guess he really took that into consideration because now it's like he's a gentle heart towards me it's so cute like I could melt plus over the past few months he's been treating me like such a lady helping me and everything So last Friday I was messing with him in church who is also my pastors son and he is 7months older than me lol and he is in his first year of college and so I was greeting him lol and it was funny because he greeted me quietly so I didn't here him and I'm like no you didn't he was like yes I did it was funny and I was like no you didn't because I didnt here you you got to project your voice lol and he was like I'm sorry I'm sorry lol I was laughing there was no need for him to apologize I wondered why he did that Also I helped out last time and he all said thank you mad loud and his brother looked at him like he were crazy and he was like what I'm just saying thank you I was laughing he also says goodnight to me sometimes to and he never does this to anyone else plus It's so cute and last Sunday he literally brushed pass me quickly lol and he's literally starting trouble with me his whole side of his body touched me Like me I looked back and before I could say anything but he already was walking mad fast and he didn't return my gaze when I looked back he walked fast and up the stairs like idk what that means but he also gets protective when I talk to other teenage guys and finally he copies me to every now and then so that's Tosan.
Tosan as a person= calm collected smart determined strong mysterious adventurous loves to have fun musical he wants to be a doctor he's humorous not a flirt he likes to tease people who are close to him and very diplomatic and diffuse he's also very sweet and kind and respectful but you have to earn it
So those are the three guys what does this all mean do I have a chance with any of them plus the one I am most comfortable with is Tosan because I've known him the longest and that's who I loved for the longest and I think the one who is honestly stoping me from loving someone else because mentally I let Tosan go but physically in my heart I haven't and idk why
It's like my heart is telling me to keep holding on to have a hope
Because it's not allowing me to have feelings for Raheem it won't let me let go of Tosan no matter how hard I try.
What do you think
But honestly my real question is does any of these 3 guys like me, and do I have a chance to be with them?