It's wonderful to have the feeling, being engaged. The picket fence, the dream, income and finances great, his smile when you walk in the door, the flowers for no reason, the words I love you and can't wait to marry you, the butterflies .
None of this you feel right? Except the dream part.
He's out there for you snash, stop wasting more time on this guy.
No guy hits a woman, no guy, trust your gut instinct for the 3rd time and don't waste another year of your life, the above is true, it happens, it's real, weddings are real. You just need that "right" person for you.