I'm iove with my bestfriend and I'm a dude

I'm a jock and he's too. We're all about the gym life and girls reallt lime us, but I'm so inlove with my bestfriend. Before we were friends I told him I was and he said he'll be there for support. I went to him over the weekend because we had a fucntion and my parents arranged that I sleep over. I did and we got so drunk the friday and saterday night. The only thing that happened is he kissed my forehead. After that we became bestfriends. We tell each other everything! Every single night we say we love each other before bed And we send huggs. He got a GF but it's a secret gf and I'm The only one that knows because it's a friends ex. I'M so jealous of her because she's getting everything I ever wanted. A few nights ago we got high. We went to bed and when I woke up, his arms were around me and he was cuddeling with me. Ofcourse I took the opp! He was holding me and It felt amazing! I don't know if he thought maybe I was his Gf but I feel maybe he knew. With every single bone in my body I want to be with him! I want to kiss him so badly. He's the only dude I feel attracted to. I'm not gay but for him I am. He is a world of perfection. I'm scared of asking him cause I don't want to loose his broship! What should I do?