If it's only been recently since your abortion (as in, less than 4 months or so), then you might still have pregnancy hormones in you and they can affect your judgment in the sense that you'd want to settle and nest.
So understand that you might be affected in a chemical way.
There is nothing wrong, and there is no shame whatsoever, in being with neither of them for the time being. In fact, I suspect it would be good for you. Clear your head and depend on yourself for your own happiness and entertainment. Cultivate some inner resources.
And then maybe think of what it means when someone isn't supportive during a fairly big medical procedure.